[FANFIC] "I DON'T KNOW LOVE" part 14

I didn’t really know what happened to me last night. I tried to open my eyes, but it felt so heavy. I felt so dizzy. I tried to wake up, but I could feel a hand on my stomach, and it held my hand so tightly. I couldn’t move, it felt so heavy on my body. Whose hand this was? I was trying to open my eyes now, like really. The owner of that hand now had moved, and I caught his eyes. My eyes almost popped out from their place when I knew whose the owner of this hand was.

“Hi.” He said. “I’ve been watching you wake up.” He continued.

I tried to back off from him, but he held my hand tightly. I tried to take my sense back. I looked at where I was lying right now, in the couch in front of TV which was still on. The table in front of me full with snacks, and soju. Now, I could remember a lit bit of this scene. I must be had drunk last night. But, the one who was beside me last night was not him, but Junhyung. And now, how could he was here, instead of Junhyung?

“Dujun-ahh, what are you doing here?” I asked.

“What do you think?” he asked me back, “I’ve been watching you wake up.” He said.

“No, I mean, you shouldn’t be the one who is by my side…,” I still tried to recall what really happened last night, “I don’t remember you were here last night.” I continued.

“I came just now.” He said, easily.

“What?” I couldn’t believe what I had heard.

“Yes.” He said. “No, actually I came here early in the morning, mor-night.”

“How? Why?” Ahh, I couldn’t think a single thing right now.

“I will tell you everything if you wake up now, and take shower, because we need to go somewhere.” He said, while standing in front of me, like a boss.

“I thought I had showed you yesterday that we are not a couple anymore. We are stranger to each other, Dujun-ahh, how could you order me around like I am belonging to you?” I asked, sat on the couch while staring at him angrily.

“I don’t remember I have given you the agreement with this one side-statement.” He said, walked to the fridge, “And drink this, you need to sober up soon.”

“Dujun-ahh, we have broken up!” I yelped.

“Who give you permission to do that? I never accept such thing.” He walked to me, giving me the orange juice.

“Where did you get this orange juice? I haven’t bought any juice…” I took the orange juice, it was true I need to sober up, but I didn’t remember had bought an orange juice.

“I bought it when driving here.” He said, short.

“Uhkk.” I coughed.

“Drink it slowly, will you?” He patted my back.

“Why you bought it?” I asked. This boy seemed come here with a proper preparation.

“Junhyung told me to.” He answered made me cough again.

“What you guys did actually…,” I sighed.

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“Miinah-ahh, can you take shower faster?” I could hear Dujun yelped from outside of my bathroom. “I need to take a bath too.”

“Why why?” I answered while wearing my big t-shirt, “You can go home, and take a bath on your own bathroom.” I yelped.

“I don’t think so, why do I need to go home when I am already here?” He said, “Knock knock” now he was busy knocking my bathroom door.

“I said WAIT.” I opened the door, “Do it fast.” I said while got out from bathroom.

He bumped to me. “Sorry.” He said. I tried to back off, and walked from other side, but both of us got stuck on the door awkwardly. My hair was wet and the shampoo smelt so nice. Meanwhile, Dujun smelt like beer. I just realized both of them made a seductive fragrance. Dujun looked at me, and weirdly I stared at his face. I didn’t know he got so thin, and looked so tired. His eyes looked like panda’s. Without realizing it, I had touched his face, “why are you so thin…?” I whispered.

Dujun was stuck on the wall, looked at me, got stiff like a statue. “You are thinner than me.” He said after inhaled. He touched my shoulder, “look, I can feel your collarbone.” He said.

“I am not.” I said, while kept touching his face. I could feel his jaw which I missed so much. I missed all of these… I missed him. I felt like I wanted to scream that I missed him.

“You miss me, right?” he said, surprised me. I tried to back off, but he held my hand with his left hand, and touched my face with his right hand. He got me closer to his body, “I can feel it, Miinah-ahh.” He said while slightly kissing me.

I wanted to back off. But, Dujun held me so tight. He forced his love toward me in a very smooth move. The fragrances of my shampoo and beer… got along well. The next second I couldn’t remember why I welcomed him… once again… in my life.

God, punish me, later.

Please, not now.

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Dujun laughed at me. I patted his hand. “Wae?” I yelped.

“Mwo?” he kissed my lips slightly.

“You kidding me,” I said.

“Me? When…?” He locked my body with his legs and hand, and kissed me, slightly, again.

“Why you keep doing it?” I said while touched his lips with my finger, then touched mine. He hugged me more tightly, and smiled. “Because I miss you.” He said. Kissed me again… slightly again.

“Don’t you miss lying in this bed like this?” he asked me, while touched my pony. He smirked.

“That… that…! You ridicule me!” I said, acted as if wanted to back off. He laughed, but still kept me on his embrace.

“Mian mian…” he said, “Hug you like this, I feel like you get so thin…” his hands on my back… I could feel his legs on my very pale legs-skin.

I touched his back… hugged him so tight, and sank on his chest… “I…,” before I could control it, I began to shed tears.

Dujun kissed my head. He was trembling, “I have known everything, Miinah-ahh.” I could hear he sobbed.

Both of us kept silence for awhile.

“Dujun-ahh…” I tried to talk while I tried to hold my tears fall.

“Ssst…” he whispered, “I love you…”

I started to cry, this moment… hurt me so much.

“Don’t ever leave me again, Miinah.” He said, “Do not hide from me again.”

I nodded.

“Promise me.”

I nodded again, again, and again. I couldn’t talk. I just hugged him. I cried on his warm hug. I could feel our skins attached to each other. I thanked God for giving me this awesome man in my short life.

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(to be cont)

[FANFIC] "I DON'T KNOW LOVE" part 13

[Miinah]

I barely could sleep these days. It was getting worse when I arrived at Korea. I wanted this thing done perfectly in my own country. Thus, I was here, in this apartment again, all alone. The first day I arrived, I sat on the couch while seeing my memories which had happened in this apartment were played in front of my eyes. Over there, in front of the fridge, I could still feel his hands, how warm his body, and how beautiful our love was back then. At that side, in front of the door, I was still able to feel his tears and his hug. In this couch, I could still remember it clearly, both of us lying, crying, laughing, watching TV, and kissing each other with love.

Ahh, our love.

I don’t really know love.

I don’t know love.

Jal moreogeosseo.

Second day, I woke up in the bed where we were supposed to sleep together, hug each other, talk about future, and share our problems. Now it was not the same anymore, empty. This room was no longer alive. The more miserable was I could feel his fragrance here, and there, also his appearance too. His transparent shade was like always surrounding me in this room. I did not know that I missed him this bad.

I did not know love.

Was it love?

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I couldn’t think a single thing that day, when I could feel my body was not in good condition. I couldn’t call my dad, or I would get more trouble. I checked my phonebook. I saw his name. But, I was not supposed to call him. For sure, I had broken up with him. I was the one who left him. I found another name: Junhyung. Yes, I was close enough with him to help me drive me to the hospital.

I called him. I never thought Junhyung would run to me very fast. No more than thirty minutes, he had already been in front of my apartment with that anxious facial expression. I couldn’t walk properly; I bet this condition got worse. When I woke up, I was already in a bed at the hospital. Junhyung sat beside me, watching me closely.

“Miinah, are you okay?” he asked.

“Yes.” I nodded, “thank you, Junhyungie.” I said.

“No prob.” He said, “By the way, there is this doctor who knows you and he said he already gives you what you need.”

“I knew it.” I replied. “Sunggyu ahjussi, right?”

“Yes, I think that his name.” Junhyung answered. “Miinah-ahh, do you have some diseases?” he asked.

“Aniya.” I said, in instant. “I’m fine. I’m just rather unwell.”

“But the doctor seems so…”

“I’m okay. I just need this infuse.” I laughed. “I can go home after this.”

Sunggy ahjussi came and I gave him an eye code to not reveal this stuff to Junhyung. He slightly nodded. “Well, Miinah-ahh, you may go home. I tell you, do not forget to rest well, and do not get hurt.” He said. I nodded while the nurses take all needles and so on.

“Junhyung-ahh, kaja!” I said while got out from the room.

“Are you really okay?” he asked still couldn’t believe me.

“I am okay. I just need to rest, I am just lacking the nutrition, that’s why I need to be recharged with that infuse, hahaha.” I laughed, “Let’s go to my apartment, I’ll cook you something nice.”

“By the way, Miinah-ahh, today is Dujun’s birthday.” I stopped walking. Was today July 4^th ?

“Ohh, geurae..” I said, “You are supposed to be there, with the boys, celebrate his birthday.” I said. “I will take a cab.” I walked in hurry.

“Miinah-ahh, I am fine. I’ll drive you home.” He said, walked by my side. “You must make a nice meal, araseo?” he hit the lift, followed by me.

---

“Why didn’t you call Dujun instead?” he said, rather drunk, a little.

“I have broken up with him.” I said, take a sip at my cola, “How am I supposed to call him?” I laughed my ass off.

“And why did you call me?” he asked.

“Because… I don’t know other than you who I can trust.” I sighed. “I must have troubled you.”

“No…,” he said, “Do you happen like me?” he asked.

“What?” I got surprised, “You are drunk, Junhyung-ahh.”

“I am not.” He said. “Let me hug you.”

“What?” I just didn’t know what to say. Before I could stop him, Junhyung already hugged me. I wanted to get rid of him, but I just couldn’t. Although Junhyung looked weak, but he was still a man.

“Na… niga jeil choa.” He said.

I couldn’t take a breath.

Like a statue, I got so stiff.

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Now, I had done crying a river while Junhyung watched TV on the couch, beside me. I just met Dujun. This was so crazy; this was my fault at the first place. Why did I ask Junhyung to watch movie? I bet I missed Seoul so much. And all ended up with my heart hurt seeing Dujun.

“Junhyung-ahh…” I said.

“Ehm?” his eyes still watched the TV.

“How could you sober up so fast last night?” I asked.

“Did I get drunk, last night?” he asked.

“Yes, you drank bottles of soju.” I said, “but suddenly you stand up and said ‘Miinah-ahh, I’m going back to dorm’ while so freaking coolly left me here alone.”

“Ehm.. I don’t remember, but I didn’t feel I got drunk last night.” He said, “Gikwang was the one who got drunk, and Dujun too.”

“Dujun?” I slipped my tongue.

“Yes.” He answered. “Ehm probably I got drunk last night, coz I feel my head so heavy this noon, but that was miracle I could ride my car safely.” He laughed.

“Molla.” I said.

“Have you finished crying?” he looked at me, “I was so surprised when you suddenly cried there, in front of the lift. You looked so cool when got out from the lift tho.”

“Don’t you know Dujun was there too?”

“What?” Junyung couldn’t hide his shock.

“Yes.” I said. “Junhyung-ahh, is it okay for you to stay here like this?”

“Gwenchana.” He said.

“Geundae, Junhyung-ahh, don’t you remember anything last night?” I asked, “Like what you said to me?”

“Like… what I said… that I like you the best?” he turned off the TV. “I said… last night, I was not drunk.”

Of my God, what the hell happen here?

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( to be cont )

[MS Prod DVD] Beautiful Night M/V - Dujun ver

I'm busy lately, so I just happen to watch it now, and the Dujun ver only. I don't think I will watch the other member's ver. lol. I can't catch up all the boys' stuff, but Imma try to take a sip (like a cup of coffee) to Duj's stuffs. So, this blog is gonna be like heaven for yoonique lol (jk jk). Well just click this , it's directly linking to the vid of Areumdaum Bam Duj ver. Thank you.

[VID ENGSUB] 'HELLO TALK SHOW' WITH BEAST

Ehm... I have finished watch HELLO (annyeong) talk show which B2ST appeared on it. At first, I didn't get it what this show all about. But, actually this is a show to judge whether it's a person's problem or not. People will come to this show to get judged and ask for help to solve their problem. Actually this is quiet interesting. Probably because the cult between Korea and my country is differ that's why I found it better to expose people's  matter in this way than what TV channels do in my country (it may be becoz we have differ mentality). Do you feel curious? just go watch it.

Well, it has been subbed by beautifulsubs. But, it seems many B2UT still haven't watched it yet, so I want to share it here. OK, remember, the credit goes to beautifulsubs. Here we go:

part 1 |  part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5

(take with proper credit)

Today's Breakfast: OP OP OPPARAPPARARAP

Morning, fellas...

Did you sleep well? Kekeke. What do you have for breakfast? Today I feel so relax, and back here I am doing my laundry right now. And I have my breakfast too: a cup of granule coffee, biscuits, and a book. Kekeke. No, I'm not eating book, but I'm in the middle reading it. If I have finished reading it, I will share it with you, guys. Btw, this is the book I got from winning the #FF2in1 by NulisBuku. LOL.

This my breakfast:

Besides, I have a fav morning song recently, from Gamaliel and Audrey, entitled: 'Jangan Parkir' or 'The Op Op Song' -this is not the OP OP OPPAN GANGNAM STYLE tho hahaha. They are Indonesian singer. Do you want to hear? This checkidot: http://www.sharebeast.com/reg8mi2eh482

[MV REVIEW] K.WILL'S 'PLEASE DON'T...'

I am doing my laundry now after having breakfast with slices of potato, sausages, and fried egg. Then I read a new book when I suddenly wants to listen to good music. And, yeah, I end up listening to K.Will's 'Please Don't'. Have you watched the MV? Well, the MV too, is exceptionally good. 

Well, you know, tbh, I came to listen to K.Will's new song is not because of curiosity of how good the song is. But, because my sister told us few days ago 'bout the twist story of the MV. Haha, yeps, I love that 'twist thingy', so I decided to click on the MV page, and violaaaa, I was amazed.

I was amazed by this MV because: firstly, there is Dasom there; secondly, there is Seo In Guk oppa there (woaaaaaaa! everybody screaaaam! screaaaam!); thirdly, the another guy is handsome; and how good Seo In Guk acts in there. Tbh, Seo In Guk is a lot handsome now, than I knew him around two years ago (?). I am not sure LOL. He kinda reminds me of Dujun (well, sowrry). 

Ehm, I want to make some review (or you may call as it is keke) while doing my laundry. Today's MV review is based on Seo In Guk's acting skill. Well, the most important thing in this MV is the part when Seo In Guk appears. Well, we do not need to think twice who the main actor of this MV is, because well, almost all scenes, this guy appears: S E O I N G U K! (Manseeeeeeeee!)

At first, along with the lyric which is being translated as 'we sit next to each other in the car but there is no music', Seo In Guk and Dasom appear sitting in a car, look like a couple. But, if you can see, Seo In Guk seems not in love with her. He looks irritated by her appearance, instead. Well, people will probably think they are couple who have fight in a car. But, constantly, on the next scenes, Seo In Guk shows to the audience that he is so frustrated by Dasom. And getting calm when the 'another guy' (sorry, idk who he is) appears. If you may look closely, Seo In Guk's acting skill is no joke. At the scene where he gets angry over Dasom, and the guy appears, he holds his desire to hit Dasom while suddenly he looks sissy in my eyes. Ehm, yes, at this scene, I know how the twist story will be. Yes, Seo In Guk is in love with the guy, not Dasom. But, unfortunately, Dasom gets married with the 'another guy'. The best part is when he tears the photo. This is the denouement. Do you want to know, watch the MV here:

All of us being tricked by his acting. The MV page was just going crazy last night (When I streamed it). People told their very own arguments. And so on. You may have one too. This is because such a rare in Korea to put this 'gay' theme in a MV. Idk, it's just my free time to spend it to write this, ehmm, just call it. Call. ^^ 

Have a good Monday, everyone. *throw confetti* 

Note: just now I found a good review of this MV, check this one: kisskisskpopreviews: Kwill - Please Dont (cr: Kisskisskpopreviews @ Blogspot)

[MV REVIEW] HYUNA'S ICE CREAM IS FOR HUNGRY CATERPILLAR?

Hi hi guys...

Do you know what I am going to post right now? I think I am crazy to write about this stuff. But, yes, there must be something interesting in it, if I decided to write it down here. Kekeke (Hyuna's laughing sound). 

Yes, I am going to review the very new MV of Hyuna, titled 'Ice Cream' which just released few days ago that has been watched by eight million people on YouTube, whether they knew her before or just visit her channel randomly. Besides, there is PSY too in this MV, as cameo who appears in few seconds in the intro of the MV. What a waste, yeah, who wants more of Gangnam Style? Probably Ice Cream Style? LOL *just saying, key?* What? You haven't watched it? Go watch it now at:

Well, actually I just want to review about very simple words from this MV which paste up on the Ice Cream Maker (or whatever people call it) in the beginning of MV when PSY appears: "the very hungry caterpillar" 

The reason I decided to review this MV is not because of how really good or swag or sexy or whatever her potential is. But, it is because how her channel is so busy being flooded by people around the world, judge her non stop which some love her, some hate her, some do not know about her at all, some come to visit the channel just because of PSY, and so on. They hate her fashion style, her rapping, her singing, the bad English pronunciation, jealous of her being sexy, swag, and so on. On the other hand, her fans and real kpopers stand on her side. Well, I am not an anti, and not a fan, and I'm just a kpoper. So, for this review, lets put aside all of those 'shit'. 

Do you know that before PSY being so famous and being praised by people around the world, Kpop already exists? Yes, HyunA too, exists as singer and rapper of girl group, named 4Minute, from CUBE Ent (the same agency ent of BEAST). Her special ability is rapping, thus her solo album is a rap album, thou sometimes she sings too. This is just for additional information, because I am afraid, you think that HyunA is just a none before becoming a cameo on (your oppa) PSY's Gangnam Style. 

Back to "the very hungry caterpillar", kekeke, do you know why they (the director, the stuff, and probably HyunA too) put it on the Ice Cream Maker? Do you want to know my thought? Well, caterpillar, as I have received my literature class, I can bet this means MAN. Caterpillar or worm usually refers to man, because they have the characterization of distracting, like plants, flowers, leaf, etc (isn't it right man comes to woman somehow is distracting?). Well, in this song, HyunA explicitly tells us that she is ice cream by singing 'ice cream ice cream, I'll melt you down like ice cream' like million times. Well, she is a woman who wants to melt down man, of course. Then this intro shows us that HyunA is ready to be eaten by man (caterpillar which is very hungry). So, what is the problem for her being so sexy in her MV and having that bubble bath, or having that 'banana boat riding dance' out of nowhere? LOL. Is there any problem for you to keep flooding her channel, by saying, 'what? she just sells sex!' or 'its just about her sexiness'. Well, she has been like that, for aiming the caterpillar to eat her. Now, problem solves. If you still don't understand, you may upgrade your very hungry curiosity on other MV reviews. LOL.

And, about the 'grammatical error signs' being held by the cameos on the mob, don't you think that this is put it there in purpose? Ehmm, how to say it, firstly, do you know that every person on earth can't ignore ice cream if it comes in front of their nose? Yes, that's the main point. These signs are to show us that everyone has their own hopes, business, silliness, and mistakes. But, when it comes to ice cream, everyone can forget it, and melt. Even, the clown and cotton candy can't melt them down, but when HyunA and his ice cream truck comes, all melt down, even girls being poisoned too by her charm. This shows us the power of this 'ice cream'. 

Do you know what 'banana boat riding dance' I refer to? LOL. This is just a name I give to this dance scene (in the sand of beach, I think these men are banana boats -_____- don't you think so?):

Well, what do you think? Lemme know. Support HyunA's Ice Cream, everybody. Thank you for spend time to read this one. 

[FANFIC] "I DON'T KNOW LOVE" part 12

[Junhyung]

That was a very cold morning. I still remembered it well. After had a hard practice for our debut performances, we stayed until morning in our practice room. I saw that girl for the second time. That was the girl who confessed to Dujun at our first fan signing event. She wore a very big jacket, a black legging, and boots. She stood in front of our company. I saw her while I was on my way to take shower. That girl brought a cup of coffee in her hand. She stared at the locked door, and for awhile closed her eyes, like praying. I smiled. I didn’t go to the bathroom, instead walked toward the mirror to see her clearer. She looked cute for a little girl like her, not so much make up, and her smile was so beautiful. Yes, she smiled before put the coffee on the floor. Then she walked away. Silently, I walked to the door, and opened it. I took the coffee. She wrote something on the cup.

‘This is our first day. Good luck, Be(a)st DJ.’

I smiled. This coffee of course for DJ –DuJun–, I giggled. What a nice girl. I drank the coffee, ah this was Americano. I kept it by myself, and didn’t even tell Dujun. Although the next day, I did not know how, Dujun could figure it out, and scolded me for not telling him.

At that time, I didn’t know that she was already being Dujun’s girlfriend.

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“Ahh, Junhyung hyung, palliwaaa…” Dongwoon tried to ask me to treat him and of course the rest of the member. “I’m hungry.”

“Hyaa, today we have a day off, why you so hungry? We don’t even practice.” I complained.

“Ahh, jinjja, Hyunseung hyung… palli, kaja!” When Dongwoon went to open the practice room door, Dujun from outside had already opened it. “Ahh, hyung, where are you? I couldn’t find you the whole day.” He said.

“Ahh mian, I came from the bada (sea).” Dujun replied while opened the door widely that I could see a girl standing beside her.

That girl was the morning coffee girl.

I smiled by myself, looking at her bright smile, while she was busy greeting each of us. When she greeted me, I just said “I am Junhyung” though I wanted to say many things to her.

“She is my girl friend.” Dujun continued.

Frozen.

I couldn’t feel anything. Did I get jealous? I did not really know.

“Her name is Miinah.” Dujun held her hand.

Miinah.

The morning coffee girl’s name was Miinah.

I feel so numb.

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“Hara looks good.” Miinah pointed the television when we watched Kara performed on stage. “Right, Dujun-ahh?” she asked Dujun.

This was so bad. Three of us in the same room, I sat on the single chair, and they were sitting together lingering each other.

“What do you think, Junhyung-ahh? Is Hara okay?” asked Dujun. I just nodded. Who the hell cared with that Hara girl when Miinah smiling so brightly while eating popcorn there. We were so close but not close enough.

“Go date her, Junhyungie.” Miinah said, looked at me, smiling.

“Oh?” I blanked. “Why me?” I asked without thinking.

“She just… looks good with you.” She answered.

“I think so.” Dujun laughed, “Go get a girl for you, like a muse.”

What? A muse? Miinah has already been my muse. I couldn’t breathe when she walked away after putting the coffee in front of the company. For many times that you didn’t even know, Dujun.

I sighed.

“Or, find one, who is as good as Miinah.” Said Dujun, jokingly around.

“Hyaa, Dujun-ahh….” Miinah punched him.

I hope, Miinah was the one, Dujun-ahh.

---

Those memories came to me like a film being played in front of me. I stood here, waiting for her. Waiting in front of the lift where she would walk out. Why must today we watch movie? Why must today she meet Dujun? Such heart breaking, for me. I never saw Dujun acted like that. He really scared me. Was there a chance for me with her, for really right now?

I waited. Waited.

Waited.

And,

waited.

Gayoon looked nervous too back then. She didn’t even talk, and just bowed to me when we arrived at her dorm. This night was really a very awkward one. I did not know if I still had a heart to see Miinah. But, I worried her. I wanted to meet her.

The lift door opened. It was Miinah.

I smiled. Although, it seemed it failed.

“Are you okay? Let’s go get you warm.” I helped her to walk.

The lift door closed.

Suddenly, she stopped walking and stayed still, stiff like a statue.

“Junhyung-ahh, ottohkae?” She sounded mumbling, “Ottohkae….” She sobbed.

“What happen?” I asked, looked at her face. She started crying.

“Ottohkae?” She cried.

I didn’t know what had happened. I just… hugged her.

“Cry on me. I will lend you my shoulder.”

Miinah cried on my embrace.

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Miinah sat in the sofa while I made the tea. She looked so unstable. Something had come up between them. I knew Miinah still loved him, very much.

“Miinah-ahh, are you okay?” I sat beside her, “here, drink the tea.” I gave her the tea.

“Thank you, Junhyungahh.” She took the tea, and put it back on the table.

“I know there must be something happened between both of you.” I said.

“I don’t know.” She said.

“Listen to me; do not lie to your heart.” I said, “and I will always here for you.”

“Junhyungahh, mian mian…” she sobbed. “I don’t know why I call you… only you…”

“Araseo, you don’t need to apologize. We are friend, right?” I said, “do not need to worry, Miinah-ahh.”

“Gomawoo…” she hugged me while crying, “I’m sorry for burdening you.”

You are not.

Never, Miinah-ahh.

Because, you don’t know how much I like you.

Since the first time I met you, until now.

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[to be cont]

9000 viewers

Idky I want to post it, because I like the number of 9000. Something good. The 'nine' and triple 'zero'. Life is good. 

LOL