“That’s really a
nice movie, isn’t it, Dujun-ahh?” I said. We already moved to the other place
after finishing watched the movie.
“I don’t really
watch…,” he said while eating his waffle.
“Mwo? We were there just now to watch
movie, Dujun-ahh.” I said, “What were you doing then all the time?” I continued
asking.
“Hugged you.” He
said easily.
I coughed,
“Uhuk…. What you….,” I drank my cola.
“I said, stop
drinking that! You never listen to me.” He said while taking my cola.
“Oh wae? Why you change the topic?” I
giggled. He gave me his ice tea. “Give me back my cola.”
“Andwe.” He said, without expression,
“I’m going to drink it. I don’t remember when you start looking just like
Junhyungie.” He drank my cola. “Uhh, not so nice.” He said.
“Don’t change
the topic to Junhyungie. I don’t know what you want to say exactly.” I sighed,
“Don’t get so exaggerated of being jealous over Junhyungie. He is your
friend…,” I said.
“Oh well… I
won’t.” He said. “Eat it.” He gave me the waffle. “It’s already twilight.” He
said, “thank you for today.”
“No… I should be
the one who say thank you, Dujun-ahh.” I said, ate the waffle, “hmm, it’s
nice.” The waffle was so smooth, melt perfectly in my mouth, “by the way, this
café is not bad.” I said while looking all over the café. This café was a cafe
beside unnie’s movie café. It had
unique interior and had a lovely atmosphere. It was sweet enough for dating
couple.
“Right, hmm?
This café is good.” He said. “Nuna
recommended it to me.”
“Hmm…” I nodded.
“Dujun-ahh….”
“Hmm?” He looked
at me.
“Let’s eat
something nice. I’m going to cook it for you.” I said. “Let’s buy some
ingredients and go to your apartment.”
“Haa?” He looked
surprised. “It’s not like the usual you.” He said, “Are you okay? He continued.
“Mwo?” I sighed. “Not the usual me? What
does that mean?”
“My apartment,”
He finished drinking my cola. “You never want to go to my apartment.”
“Oh… that’s…
just…” I thought something to answer him, but… “Just, kajaaaa….” I said.
“Ehmmmm? You are
not hurting your head, uh?” I held his hand and moved toward his car which was
parked in front of the café.
---
“Haha… that’s
crazy, right?” I said while laughing so hard, “that girl recognized you. He
knew you!” I saw a little girl in front of the grocery store, maybe still in
her eighth grade, starred at Dujun’s car. “She follows us.”
“Haha… I am so
famous you know… isn’t that great?” He said while turned on the engine. “I wear
black glasses and hat thou. She must be my fans.”
“The hardcore
one. Made me feel uneasy choosing ingredients at grocery store.” I said while
looking at our goods. “I am going to cook something nice. Do you like pasta,
right?” I took a box of pasta.
“You do the
simple one.” He giggled.
“Mwo?” I tickled him.
“Ahh… hyaa
Miinah-ahh, stop it! I’m driving right now….” He said, giving a serious face.
“Ahh… yes,
sorry.” I laughed. “Whatever… lalala… I’m going to feed you.”
“Feed?” He
asked, “Am I a camel or chicken that you need to feed me?”
“No. Because you
need to be fed! Look, you are so thin. You don’t know that your fans feel so
worried seeing you so thin.” I sighed, “So before anyone else does it for you,
I’ll be the first.”
“You did feed
me, French toast every morning.” He said.
“That’s just…
ehm… a breakfast. That can’t be said as feeding you.” I said made him laugh.
“Oh okay I see,
thank you, Miinah-ahh.” Both of us laughed.
At least, let me
do it.
Let me do it,
God.
---
“Welcome to the
jungle.” He said. “They have missed you so much. For months they didn’t meet
you.” He took the groceries and put it on the kitchen. “Especially this kitchen
missed the scent of your French toast.”
“What are you…?
Do not seduce me!” I said while patted his butt. “Go there watching the TV, I
will cook for you.” I wear the apron, “wow this apron is the one I bought last
year, you keep it all this time.” Yes, the apron with the skull pattern I
bought with him when he bought this apartment last year.
“Of course. Only
girl like you bought apron with skulls on it… tsk.” He said while turned on the
TV. “I’m going to watch TV, and call me when the dinner ready.”
“Yes, bosseu.” I said while chopping the meat.
---
“Let’s eat.” I saw
him smiling at my very ordinary pasta I ever made. “It looks delicious.” He
continued.
“Let’s pray
first.” I said, “God, thank you for giving us this food. God, thank you for
giving me someone I can have dinner with. I do not want anything, I just want
that we can do it for the rest of our live.” What I said? What my mouth said? I couldn’t control it. I’m sorry
Dujun-ahh.
I looked at him
who starring at me with unpredictable face.
“Ehm… let’s eat.”
He said while wiped his eyes.
“Are you crying?”
I asked. “Dujun-ahh? Did my words too…,”
“No. Thank you,
Miinah-ahh. Thank you for making me as the most precious person in this world.”
He slightly touched my hand, and put the
pasta into his mouth.
“Thank you too for
always having a faith in me. I love you.” I said. “Let’s eat. Is it nice,
right?”
“Yeps, It’s
delicious.” He ate it with happy face, “Miinah-ahh, I love you too.”
“Hyaaah,
Dujun-ahh, can you count how many ‘I love you I love you’ words we said today?”
I laughed. Not like the other days, today we said ‘I love you’ to each other
like a hundred times. It had a feeling that we gonna be separate away.
---
“Let’s watch
something funny today!” I said while taking the remote control.
“Hoooahhh, I’m
so full.” Dujun touched his stomach. “I’m a fatty ahjushii now.” He sat beside me in the sofa, “And you are Yoon ahjumma.” He laughed while kissed my
cheek.
“Hyaaa… mwo…? I’m not going to be an ahjumma..! I’ll be forever a young
Miinah.” I watched the TV. It was Running Man, “just like her, Jihyo unnie, going to be like her even in my
thirty.” I said.
“Miinah-ahh,
when you are going to be a halmonie,
don’t you think I’m going to be a harabojie
too? Then, whatever your look gonna be, I will always stay by your side.” Dujun
said, suddenly in a serious tone.
“What…” I couldn’t
say anything. “Ne, harabojie.” I
hugged him for awhile, then back watching the TV.
“By the way,
Miinah, let’s watch another program.” He said while trying to take the remote
control from my hands.
“Let’s watch
this one!” I said, hiding the remote control behind my back.
“Hyaaah, give me
the remote.” He said while busy looking at my back, he hugged me while trying
to take the remote behind my back. I could smell his very warm perfume. Yes, I
always felt that his perfume was so warm. Warm to hold me, touch me, just like
a shampoo, the scent was all over my body.
“Dujun-ahh.” The
remote fell from my hand, “You…”
“Hmm,
Miinah-ahh?” He still tried to take the remote.
“Your scent is
so …,” I held my breath, “warm.” I hugged him, touched his back with my hands.
I could hear the
remote was falling from his hand. And Jae Suk’s voice invaded the room. Both of
us stayed still and didn’t even make any noise.
I unclosed my
hug. I looked at his face. He looked at my face.
“And your scent
is like a drug…,” he said, “Miinah-ahh, I can’t live without the presence of
your scent.” He touched my neck.
“Don’t say
something like that.” I said, “Consume a drug can make you addicted.” I
continued, “that’s not good. Not good. For us.” I touched his chest while
looking below, to the white sofa.
“Do not cry,
now.” He said, “Look at my face.” He said again, “Why must we feel this kind of
feeling… right now.”
I looked at him.
My tears started to fall. He looked at me. He touched the tears, wiped it, and
kissed the corner of my eyes.
We were both in
silence.
“Today, there’s
a couple spotted in the XXX Zoo, while some fans spotted them in a grocery too
near Cheongdam-dong.” I looked at the TV, the news made me back to reality. “From
the fans’ photo that they took today, the boy is Yoon Dujun from BEAST.” Dujun
looked at the TV too.
Both of us
looked at each other.
“And the girl
who was beside him was the girl from the previous rumor.” The news continued
wilder. I couldn’t believe what I saw right now.
“Dujun-ahh.” I
whispered, “What we gonna do…,”
Dujun touched my
cheeks with his both warm hands. “Miinah-ahh, I love you.” He kissed my lips so
deeply. I got rather shocked while my tears started to shed. I closed my eyes
and felt his love digging so deeply into my heart.
---
[DUJUN]
“Miinah-ahh, I
love you….” I wanted to touch her more. She was with me, beside me, all this
night. I did not want her to think about that silly news. That was why I did it
all. To make her feel secure, I needed to do it.
“Trrriiing…” My
phone rang.
“Ne yeobeoseoyo…” I said while opened my
eyes, “ah hyung, ne, waeyo?” Sehun
hyung on the phone. “I knew it already.” I said while sitting and trying to
find Miinah. I looked at the bed beside me, she was not there. Where did she go? “Hyung,
I’ll call you later.” I hung the phone. I woke up from my bed and ran to the
living room. She was not there. She was not in the bathroom too.
“The kitchen.” I
whispered to myself. I didn’t find her too. But… I found my table full of food,
and seaweed soup. “Don’t say….” I trembled. I touched the table when I saw a
note on a plate.
I couldn’t… I
didn’t want… to read it.
Miinah-ahh, how
could you…
How could you do
this to me…?
Dujun-ahh, thank you for loving me all this time.
Today is July 4, saengil chukae.
I LOVE YOU.
Choi Miinah
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[to be continued]
