130121 Yoon Dujun, “BEAST Members are Friends I Have Known For a Long Time”

-This is article from 10(ten)asia magz of Yoon Dujun which makes my heart flutter lol . Yeah, I do not own anything. Take with proper credit. Let's support uri leader-agent-snipper Yoon Dujun - Seo Hyun Woo!-

[PIC] DUJUN: IRIS 2 OFFICIAL POSTER

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[PIC] DUJUN AT 10(TEN)ASIA MAGZ

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[FANFIC] GOOD BYE TO ROMANCE 05

THE DREAM

Lucky me, Dujun was not seating next to me. How lucky I was, again, none sat beside me. This was the best since I didn’t really like having a chat with the passenger next to me, which I usually would have done it just in the name of maintaining good manner. More than that, I didn’t really have enjoyed it. So, here, I was alone, flied to South Korea for twelve hours to go. Sounded so interesting. Yeah, I could read some books which I needed to finish it by the end of this month. I had this habit to make list of books I needed to read. Yeah, I was Jane, the bookworm, Soo Ah had said. Soo Ah. Once my mind flied to her name, I felt extremely happy. I was gonna meet her again after four years apart. I missed her so much. She was the only friend I could rely on, even until now. I had imagined coming to her home, meet Heo family, and had a proper greeting. I smiled just by imagining it. That family was so warm. Every time I visited them I always could smell the rice being cooked or the comfortable pillows. It was slightly different with my own home. Besides, I loved seeing Soo Ah’s oppa read book in his private library. That private library was the most romantic place I had ever seen entire my life. Brown was the dominant color, there was a couch in the middle of it, while the rack full of books. Hae Bum was two years older than us. At that time he looked so cool, clever, and so manly. Like glue, I had clung to him since middle school until I graduated from high school and moved to Indonesia. At that time he had already been in medical school. I felt so curious, how was him now? If only Dujun never once meddled …

[MV REVIEW] JAE JOONG'S MINE: A TRANSFORMATION

I don't have any idea why I feel so obsessed with Kim Jae Joong's latest MV entitled Mine. At first, I click the play button, I feel amazed because he sings freaking rock song! Which I never imagined Jae Joong will choose this genre (and yeah, I love it). Although it sounds bit like J-rock. Probably because he is being influenced by it a lot as he worked in Japan for years. Have you watched the MV? Go check it here:

official mv | engsub + romaji mv

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Well, anyone knows what this MV actually tells us? I knew nothing in the beginning. I just feel so amazed seeing how this MV is so well-produced. The costumes are great, perfect, the scenes too look so freaking cool, and the animals (owl, dog, raven, snake) are so magical to be put there. Wow, I just opened my mouth widely when watched this MV, even drooled on my laptop. Honestly, I really don't know why I am so obsessed right now with this MV. 

[FANFIC] GOOD BYE TO ROMANCE 04

THE FLIGHT

This was a very cold morning of Jakarta. I held my jacket, and zipped it. But, the wind kept coming over. And, I could feel it touched my cheeks. Indeed cold. It was probably because this dawn the rain had poured really hard. I eyed the Monas. What am I doing here? I tried to make my sense back. But, I just couldn’t do it, when ‘he’ was standing right beside me. 

“This is cold. How about we back to the hotel?” I suggested. “And I’ll drive you to the airport at noon.” I added, looked at him for awhile.

“This is what you called as sight-seeing this morning?” He pointed to the Monas. “To see this?” He said. “I better got going with my group last night then.” He mumbled.

“Then, why yesterday, your Prof asked me to guide all of you while last night Prof Son and the others had the flight?” I frowned. He indeed had the talent to make me mad. “And, you, why you still here? You could go with them last night. Why? I am asking you.”

“Do I need to tell you?” He whispered. “But, who are you to let me tell you my reason, huh?”

[FANFIC] GOODBYE TO ROMANCE 03

THE GAME

The seminar hall was the biggest one in this university. I smiled to myself as knowing I had worked hard for this seminar. I eyed the people who slowly fulfilled the hall. They sat on the chairs which my friends and I had set yesterday. Many professors and their students came from various universities around the world, but I put interest more to the local professors and students. I like seeing Indonesians. It was especially because they had different appearances since they came from many races. This was so different with Koreans whose skins all had the similar tone color. I got bored easily living there. But, thanks to God, I had not so bright skin, because my mom was a Javanese, one of races found in Indonesia. The skin color of Javanese women was the best I had ever seen, exotic, and sexy. Indonesians called it as sawo-matang, you know, it was brown, but not dark, and beautiful. I had inherited that, but I also had gifted with the look of Korean, I had mono eyelid, pointed nose, and the best jaw line that many girls would kill to have it. But still, many people picked me because I was slightly different.

[FANFIC] GOOD BYE TO ROMANCE 02

-The Unwanted Meeting-

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, one hundred percent sure.”

“This is crazy.”

“What? Hyaa, Soo Ah, of course this is beyond crazy.”

“I mean, I swear, yesterday I watched BEAST still had music program.”

“So?”

“They are still promoting their new album!”

“What is the relation with me?”

“Hyaa, baboyaa[1], this means Dujun is not supposed to be there!”

“Mwo? Jinjja?[2]”

[FLASH FICTION] Poster

Pilih saja aku.

Pilih aku.

Aku tahu kamu maunya disayang, kalau dia tak mampu, pilih saja aku. Melihatmu terluka seperti itu membuat hatiku sakit. Apakah dia memang untukmu? Harusnya aku di posisinya. Dia itu siapa sih bisa membuatmu merana seperti itu?

"Pilih saja aku...."

Kamu terdiam.

"Dia hanya menggunakanmu."

Kamu terdiam.

"Setiap hari gosipmu dengannya tak hentinya muncul di telivisi."

Kamu terdiam.

"Kalau dia tak mampu pilih saja aku."

Kamu terdiam.

"Kamu tak pernah menjawabku."

Aku merobek poster artis ibukota di depanku dengan kesal karena dia tak pernah membalas pernyataanku. 

-fin-

inspired: Pilih Saja Aku - Petra Sihombing

[FLASH FICTION] Divine Love

I eyed him. I saw his moves. He was the best in his field. I believed my eyes. They couldn't lie to me. Not now. He was extremely handsome. I could sense it. He was the most wanted man in this place. Many people called his name. The girls named him, claimed him as theirs. While the men, clapped on him, cheered on him as shouted the jealousy. I was just standing here, watched over him. He didn't know me yet. He had no idea who I was.

"I have waited for this for almost a thousand years." I whispered. "The time has come, handsome." I licked my lips while my eyes couldn't leave him. "Let's play the game." I shot him with an arrow - a love arrow. I had waited for it many years. I had waited to be this brave to just shoot him. I saw him fell on his knees as he touched his chest. I could see the blood. He was nearly reached me. I smiled. Came to me, came. I arched my back as wings appeared on my back. "I will take you, I won't let you leave me ever again." I said. 

[FANFIC] GOOD BYE TO ROMANCE 01

-Holy Shit Monday-

The singing birds woke me up. I just slightly opened my eyes, and shut it back. This was really an extremely cold Monday. How was I supposed to go out? Oh yeah, that idiot old man asked me to replace him on his current job, screwed my day. I sighed, still cuddling under my warm blanket when I saw the watch on the table.

10:00

Oh it was ten in the morning. Ehm, okay.

Wait, what?

I stood up from my bed, and ran to the bathroom as fast as I could. Screwed me, holy shit! All of this started once that idiot old man suggested us to pick all the important guests of this seminar at the airport. Well, okay, I was his students, but how came a student risk her study time just to make him can rest on his very comfortable car? I hit the shower, almost like couldn’t feel the water at all, walked out from it, and wore my shirt quick.

“Idiot old man, you are going to pay me an arm and a leg.” I cursed, while watching myself on the mirror. “You are…” I looked at my face, “just so-so.” I exhaled as I took my bag and stirred the door knob. “Welcome, real world.” I said that when I could see the busy city of Jakarta once I stood in front of my so called house. Well, I need to arrive at Soeta at least an half of hour from now. I didn’t know this could be a very bad day for me. And this was just the beginning.

[FANFIC] "I DON'T KNOW LOVE" part 30 (FINAL)

[DUJUN]

11:00 pm

She seemed bored. I had won several times over her. But, she didn’t seem want to end it. I didn’t know why back then she suddenly brought up the topic of our limited time being together. I eyed how she immersed playing the whining although I had known she never had any interest on game. I put the joystick on the carpet. Silently my hands ran through her waist, and pulled her closer to my body so her back on my chest while I folded my legs. She turned her face, surprised. “Wae wae?” she blinked. I just shook my head, “Ani… I’m just bored.” I said. She then abandoned the joystick and intertwined my fingers with hers. “What should we do next?” I asked.

 “Let’s have a nice conversation… I’m bored too.” She said. I smirked. Look, she was really bored.

“That sounds nice.” I said, “You want me to make you coffee?”

“Nope. We are not going to chat here.” She said, while pecked my cheek. “Take your jacket, let’s walk on the neighborhood. I want to eat the ddeobeokki…” She stood from her place and dragged me so I stood from my seat as well.

“Are you sure?” I asked, followed her who took her jacket.

“Yes.” She said. “Why?” She took my jacket, “Jaaa, wear this.” She helped me to wear the jacket.

“Since its cold, let’s have a fast walk, eat ddeobeokki, and back here, araseo?” I said, while hugging her shoulder. She nodded, “Araseoyooong~” I giggled seeing her aegyo.

“Kajaaaaaa….!”

[FANFIC] "I DON'T KNOW LOVE" part 29

[MIINAH]

Oct 13, 2013

11:00 am

“See, you are ready for doing it. I could see it once you walked on the aisle.”

I glared at him in between our kiss, and smirked. “You are more ready than me.” I whispered at the same time he ended the kiss.

“Miinah, are you kidding me? Of course I have been ready all this time.” He smiled then took my hand, and held it. “Finally we are official, wifeu.” He continued. And without realizing it, people started to clap as the sign of congratulating us. Dujun and I turned around to face them and slightly bowed. I could see our families gathered together here, Cube agency staffs here too, Dujun’s friends here too –Beast, 4minute, BTOB, Jihoon, and Acube artists too, dad’s colleagues, and some celebrities Dujun knew attended our wedding as well. Most of the faces were people I didn’t know and mostly half of them were famous. My friends were just those who work with me in the exhibition project. I smiled to dad as he was the only family I had here and So Yeon, my cousin (remember? She was the one who had Yoseob as her bias). Dad smiled back and whispered “chukae”, I felt my tears going to fall but I held it. I just nodded and waved my bouquet randomly.

[FANFIC] "I DON'T KNOW LOVE" part 28

[MIINAH]

“Wow, this is funny how netizens do not oppose your relationship, guys!”

“Ehm yes indeed.” I said.

“You both even have shippers. And … is this a fansite? I mean... the shippers make sites for uploading your photos with Dujun have … a freaking date! Gosh, Korean netizens have grown up, I see!”

“Yes, unnie. But, can you imagine in the middle of lunch suddenly there is this group of girls taking photo of you and your lover eating fried chicken and drinking mmakgeolli in your very own friends’ restaurant?”

“You mean Yoseob’s parent’s restaurant, Miinah.”

“Ehm, well, thank you for the correction.” I said, “Yeah, that’s. You have a nice lunch, but suddenly ‘puuufff’ chaos once they recognize us.” I laughed.

“But I know you guys happy, right?” she asked.

“Absolutely, unnie. Beauty-s on our side. I mean, they love our relationship to the point stalk us!”

“Yeah, fan girls are good in acting like paparazzi you know.” She said while closing the laptop she was in almost an hour because she was amazed by the fact how many sites dedicated to Dujun and I mushrooming right now. “And you know, girl, lately, they follow your fashion style. Kinda like you are a fashion trendsetter now among the fan girls –beauty actually and the shippers of course.” She said while giggled. “And the idols too, actresses follow your style. Well, you are the precious daughter of Mr. Choi indeed, and Beast’s leader’s girlfriend and I see you have a very good taste in fashion. What a life, girl.”

“That is … I don’t know why they follow my style … and the funniest thing is that … sometimes they give edit on my photo with Dujun like this … ehm … ‘a simple shirt is a simple way to move Beast oppa’s heart?’ when I read that I was like ‘wow they mock me’ … but the next day, many of them wear the same pattern of my ‘simple’ shirt. I can’t help but laughing, unnie.” I said while patted my legs. “But, I love them and thank them.”

“Duri … Miinah …!” I heard the voice of Mrs. Yoon, Dujun’s eomma from the kitchen on the first floor.

“Neee, eomma!” Duri unnie stood up from her place, “We are coming!” she continued. “Hey Miinah …,” she whispered when we walked side by side, to the kitchen.

“Ne, unnie?” I whispered back.

“But, the latest photo they were uploaded was about two weeks ago which means four weeks after you moved here.” She said. “Are you still in a good mood with my dongsaeng, right?” she gazed me.

[FANFIC] "I DON'T KNOW LOVE" part 27

[MIINAH]

I woke up the next morning by the sound of the alarm beside my bed. I opened my eyes slowly. The alarm showed it was seven in the morning. Yeah, I was usually waking up at that time. I stretched my body. Hmm, my bed was the best place to sleep. Wait… wait… bed? Did I sleep in the bed last night? Didn’t I sleep in the couch with the snoring boy, my Dujun? Wait… I touched the space beside me, none was there. I stared the empty spot blankly. Wasn’t I supposed to sleep with him? Did he leave me without saying good morning? Did I dream last night? Was what happen last night just merely a dream? Did Dujun really propose me? Did he really bring the marriage certificate? Did I even wear the ring?

The ring… yes, the ring….

I looked at my right fingers. I saw it. The diamond ring was there, shone so brightly. So, this was not a dream. Dujun did really propose me last night. I exhaled, felt so relieve. Nothing happened last night, right? I look at my complete pajamas. Then, I giggled alone while kicking the blanket. Once again, before I really got out from the bed I looked at the empty space supposed to be Dujun’s, I believed Dujun carried me from the couch to the bed and slept beside me, because I could smell his perfume in the pillow beside me, and how the sheet in a mess, he must be with me all night. I believed. All of these were not a dream. It was supposed to be not.

Slowly I walked to the living room. “Ouch…” when I touched the door, I felt my fingers in pain. Surprised by my own fingers, I widened my eyes, how came this fingers like this? Last night it was not like this. I had been washing the dishes even. What happened? Someone had abruptly covered it with handkerchief. There was the trace of blood in the tip of three fingers out of five. Did it happen after I washed the dishes? I recalled they were fine – absolutely fine. “Dujun?” I called him while removing the blood-covered-handkerchief, trying to find the cotton from the locker. “Duj? Are you here?” I kept calling him. No answer. Was I alone here? Really alone? “Dujun?” I was more like yelling now.

“Hmm…” there was a voice. I was sure.

“Is that you, Duj?” I asked, anxious. I tried to turn on the light when I saw a figure standing in the balcony. A figure I knew very well. His back faced me. What a beautiful back of beautiful creature God ever made. I smiled. “What are you doing there?” I walked slowly toward balcony when I realized today’s shining sun was extremely beautiful. “That is beautiful.” I whispered as I reached the edge of the balcony.

“Mwoga?” he asked while turning his head to face me.

“Ehm?” I looked at his sleepy eyes, “the sun.” I said. “It’s still seven, but the sun has appeared beautiful.” I continued, “But you are the most beautiful in the world.” I laughed while pushed his left arm with my right arm.

“Wohooo… isn’t me supposed to seduce you?” he pinched my cheek, “ups, I am not supposed to pinch you…” he sighed.

“Why?” I asked, in instant.

“Ehm…” he murmured, “I am supposed to….” He rolled his eyes, “kiss you?” while putting his lips to mine, and crashed it softly. “Isn’t it?” he parted while smiling made my heart skip a beat. I just simply nodded. I didn’t know how to react, seeing how nice this man who was standing in front of me now. “Hmm… look, you are like a little puppy… Min.” he said.

“Min… it seems so long you call me by that name.” I said, held the cold hedge of the balcony, seeing the morning sky. “Time sure flies, right Duj?” I whispered.

“You too, just call me Duj, since last night. It’s quite long time you haven’t called me like that.” He said. “Do we miss the old days, Min?” he asked while chuckling.

“Ehm… probably…” I mumbled, “By the way, my lovely future husband, what are you doing here since it is still so freaking seven in the morning? Why you leave me alone in the bed where you supposed to hug me when I opened my eyes?” I teased.

“I have my morning coffee.” He said while showing the big mug in his right hand. “I woke up just now, and feel like want to knock something up. And, you just have this set of coffee.” He sighed. “It seems like we are gonna have to have breakfast outside.” He continued.

“I am sorry.” I replied. “I just had been discharged yesterday, so I haven’t had time to buy the daily necessary.”

“Hey, that is not your fault.” He said while smiling, “do you want coffee?” he gave me the warm mug. I just simply grabbed it, and took a sip.

“Thank you.” I said. “This is warm.” I handed it to Dujun again, when he then moved to my back side, and hugged me from behind, his left hand in my waist, while another one held the mug.

“This is a lot warmer.” He said. “Isn’t it, Min?” he pecked my reddened cheek.

“Hyaa… Dujun-ahh, you make me shy.” I closed my face with my hands.

“Why? You are going to grow old with me, why you must get shy being with me?” He giggled. “We are going to have many children, our children gonna get married, then we will have bunch of grandchildren. So, we can make a team of football player.”

“What?” I yelped. “No, we are not going to make a football team, you idiot.” I laughed.

“Then, a group of models? You will be able to take picture each of them then!” he suggested.

“Can we?” I asked. “But when that time comes I will have been died.” I continued, didn’t even pay attention with the words I uttered. Suddenly both of us fell in silence. Silly, what a mistake I had made. “I am sorry… I am not…” I said finally, tried to see Dujun’s facial expression. But he stared blankly toward the tiny wind.

“You are not going to anywhere.” He whispered. “You are going to grow old with me, Min.” He tightened his hug. “Promise me you won’t say something like that anymore. Promise me.” He sounded trembling but happened to manage every words clear to be heard.

“….” I couldn’t answer him, I just nodded.

“And, I beg you, don’t touch any work like washing the dishes, cleaning the room, everything.” He suddenly said something out of nowhere. “I beg.”

“Why?” I innocently asked.

“I won’t let you get hurt by doing those stuffs.” He answered. I looked at my injured fingers. Last night, it got bleed and the one who saw it was none other than Dujun. I knew he must feel so worried. I was sorry that I didn’t even feel the bleeding. “You promise me?” he asked in force.

“I promise.” I said, short.

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[DUJUN]

We had breakfast in the café in the neighborhood. Since it was still early in the morning, not so many people came here. I sat on the corner while seeing Miinah flipped the menu. I saw her finger which got hurt last night. I was worried to death last night just seeing how the blood can’t stop bleeding. That was when I almost fell to the deep slumber when I heard Miinah moaned, I looked at her face, and she looked in pain. She kept whispering something like ‘eomma eomma…’ that made me sit from my laying position. I got out from the couch when I realized her fingers already bleeding. The blood fell to the carpet. I couldn’t think the right thing to do. I just took my handkerchief from my pocket and messily tied it with the injured fingers. She didn’t open her eyes but kept calling her eomma. She needed to sleep in the better place, so I decided to carry her to her bedroom, and lay her on the bed. She kept calling her mom when I crawled to the bed, decided to hug her and patted his back. After for awhile doing that, she slept soundly and not moaned again, and stopped calling her mom. I fell asleep minutes later while embracing her fragile figure.

“Duj, what do you want for breakfast?” her voice brought me back to the reality.

“Same with you please, princess.” I said.

“Ssst…” She looked surprise, “don’t call me like that. It’s in public.” She whispered. Meanwhile I could see the waiter held his laugh. I eyed him. He looked back at me and said, “So two waffles with two hot chocolates?” He asked. I nodded. The waiter hurriedly went to the bar. “He must want to kill you for saying something cheesy like that.” Miinah laughed while she accidently looked at her fingers. “Ehm… thank you…” she whispered.

“For?” I asked, purely didn’t know what she meant.

“This.” She showed her injured fingers. “And this,” she showed the finger with the diamond ring. “I thought last night was just a dream because I suddenly slept on the bed and you suddenly not by my side.” She said. “I bet I must be on the angst feeling so much.”

“You don’t need to feel like I am going to leave you, Miinah.” I said. “I will be with you.” I continued. “Ehm… that’s why come to my parent’s house, will you?”

“Not today right?” she asked. “The scarf for Duri unnie is already half made though.”

“You can finish it on my parent’s house, Miinah.” I said calmly.

“You are gonna to meet my dad, right?” She asked.

“Yeah, I will.” I said, “We gonna come together?” I asked.

“Yes, I guess.” She said. “Do I need to pack today?”

“Yes.” I said, shortly. “If you live with my family, you won’t feel anxious again… I promise… You won’t feel alone because no one is around you. I give you this option because you don’t want to live with your dad….”

“Thank you…” she said. “I realize the fact now, I get your point. I will follow your lead.”

Both of us smiled. Meanwhile, the waiter (who held his laugh back then) eyed us and now he held his tears. What a funny waiter. Kkk.

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to be cont

[CURRENT FAVE SONG] TRY - PINK

This is the song I currently love and listen to, TRY by PINK. Yeah, I like it so much that I always spare time to turn it on my playlist, even when I work on my thesis, write my fanfic, or just randomly do stuffs. Yeah, I love what is written in this song's lyric.... Hmm, so freaking love this song I don't have any idea. *-*

Ever wonder about what he's doing
How it all turned to lies
Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy
Even when it's not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by by by

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

Check the video here: full official video | official lyric video

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[PIC] DUJUN AND BASKET BALL

He plays soccer, yess, we know it already. What happen when he found a basket ball instead of a football? No wonder, he kinda losing on dribble, and kick it instead. Kekeke, my lovely man I love him. Credit photos goes to Head via loveyboy_dj on twitter and reup by me. Here, they are: 

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[FANFIC] "I DON'T KNOW LOVE" part 26

[DUJUN]

I saw her ate the porridge slowly, gulped it down without making any noise. Now, both of us were sitting side to side on the carpet in the dim living room. The table in front of us full of side dishes like kimchi and tofu, and also two glasses of herbal medicine. I caressed the corner of her left eyes when I saw a trace of tears there. She just remained silent. “I am sorry….” I whispered. She still busy with her porridge and didn’t care to look at my face. “I am truly sorry.” I repeated. As the shine of moon entered the room, I could see her flat face; I don’t know what exactly happen to her….

Suddenly she put the spoon on the table, drank the herbal medicine, and wiped her lips. She moved closer to me, I could feel her arms touched mine. I looked at her who was not even once seeing my eyes. I eyed her moving, and my heart skipped a beat when she leaned her head to my right shoulder, and lingered her hands on my waist. It’s not a matter of how long you have been with the one you love, but as the skin ship happen you just can’t ignore that you feel nervous and happy at the same time. Yeah, that was what I feel every time being with Miinah.

She tightened her embrace, and breathed on my chest, I hugged her shoulder. I could feel our heart beat in sync. The room was silent, but both of us busy hugging each other, feel our own love affection toward each other. Without word from our lips and without any force to love each other, we were trying to repair our relationship with the invisible love potion that I suspected being poured by God just now to this room.

I smiled.

She hummed, looked at my eyes finally, and smiled.

“I am sorry for earlier….” She uttered. “I hate you yelled to me like that.” She continued, while intertwined our fingers.

I nodded, ruffled her hair, and smell the nice fragrance of her shampoo. “Me too, sorry for yelling.” I looked at her teary eyes, “don’t cry like that anymore.” I blinked. “You made me afraid.” I said.

“Sorry. I just can’t control it. You said you were tired, but minutes later you said you were not.” She inhaled. “What a liar.” She hissed.

“Yeah, I know I am a bad liar.” I giggled. “Have you done eating?” I checked on her bowls. “It’s still half of it. You need to finish it, Miinah.”

“I’m full.” She said, patted her tummy. “You eat yours. Palli….” She took my bowls, and got a spoonful of porridge and forced it to my lips. “Aaaaaa….” I chuckled seeing her like that. Without realizing it, I parted my lips, and she successfully feed me. “Yeay, you need to finish it!” She smiled, while preparing the next feeding. I pinched her cheek, made her yell “Hyaa… Dujun-ahh… neo… apaaa…!” I slid my tongue and reached her bowl.

“Now, time for you to eat yours… aaaaa….” I put the spoon deep into the base of the bowl. Yeah, I get it. “Open your mouth, princess…. aaaa….” I delivered the spoon into her mouth, and….

“Ugh… what is it?” Miinah blinked her eyes, “What is it… in the porridge?” She opened her mouth and took something out from it. I chuckled a little. “Dujun-ahh, what is it…?” She widened her eyes when she saw a ring on her hand. “Dujun-ahh… what is it?” She looked at me, surprised. “A ring?” She eyed the ring, didn’t know what to do.

I took the ring from her hand. And cleaned it with the tip of my shirt, and placed it on her left ….finger. “Will you marry me?”

She blinked her eyes, opened them, and widened them.

“Will you?” I said, once again.

She just looked at me, stiffened like a robot, and didn’t even make a single move.

“Well, it seems you reject me,” I made a sad face, “I will take the ring back.” While pouted my lips. Suddenly, she held my hand; I took a look at her face, she was almost crying but happened to wipe the tears, and laughed.

“Hyaaaa…. Who will think to propose by giving a porridge ring?” She patted my left arm.

“Porridge ring?” I asked, “This is made from diamond, you know.” I caressed the ring.

“Oh my God, babooooyaaaaa…. I mean, who will think to give a ring by hiding it in the porridge….!” She hugged me, “I do. I do.” She continued.

“And… I have this…,” I ran to my bag on the kitchen table, I took a paper from it. “Look.” I handed the paper to her whose eyes got widened again.

“O my God, are you serious? We are just twenty four… and we are doing it now?” She almost jumped from the carpet when she read what was written in the paper.

“We are twenty five in Korea –yeah, twenty four internationally. But, we are mature enough to sign that!” I said while pecked her lips. “Will we fill the paper? And then… registered our marriage?” She sobbed to make me surprise, “Why?” I asked.

“Hmm… let’s sign this marriage certificate after I have been kneeling down to your parents, after I have been thanking them to deliver a man like you in this world, and after I have been giving your nuna the best knitted sweater I made.” She licked her lips, “Is it okay?” she continued.

“Do what you want….” I nodded, “But, first, will you move to my parents’ house?” I asked who was replied by her humming. Then, she slightly nodded.

“I will.., but after you met my dad.” She said. I smiled full with the content of happiness. I could feel I was less tired now. And, for her surprise, her dad had known this event because he was the one who gave me suggestion to do this ‘late porridge proposal’. Yeah, he proposed Miinah’s mother in the same way. After Miinah got angry at me, I called her dad, and he suggested me to propose her, which was already on my plan that night. I drove fast to the ring shop I had ordered to make the diamond ring for this ‘I-don’t-know-when-will-happen-event’ around three weeks ago. And now, the ring already on her finger, and I love it!

“I will.” I said.

“I love you!” She said while hugging me, and sniffed my neck. “Now, am I your wife?” She whispered to my earlobe.

“…” I didn’t know the answer because we hadn’t signed the marriage certificate and hadn’t held the wedding ceremony. So, I thought we were not legal yet now. Don’t you think so?

“Baboyaaaa…. We haven’t official yet!” She patted my arms. “How could you think so long just to answer that?”

“Ehm… because I don’t see any difference between you become my wife or just simply the girl I love most in this earth…” I said, shyly, “I mean… I have loved you for all this time, and will keep going to love you…!” I smiled brightly, opened my hands, and offered her to come to my embrace.

“I love you… I love you…!” She cried in happiness. “No matter what happen next I want to see you smile like this, Dujun-ahh, araseo, my husband?”

I could feel my cheeks reddened as she said ‘my husband’… I don’t know whether it is a dream or reality… all I know is I cherish this special moment like there’s no tomorrow.

“How about we move to the next level?” I teased her.

“What?” She looked at my eyes, “What do you mean?” she asked.

“There…” I moved my chin toward her bedroom direction.

“Hyaaaa… pervy… neooo….. andwae…. We haven’t been a legal married couple, you know!” She punched my chest, and took the bowls and glasses and stuffs. “I will wash the dishes; you can help yourself calming down your dirty mind.”

I laughed loudly, “Hyaaa I am kidding you know… do you think we never do that before?” I jokingly kicked her back side.

“Ehm… what we did before was different with the-move-to-the-next-level term you have made just now, you know!” She pouted her lips, and walked to the kitchen, while I eyed her, and sighed.

“Miinah, I love you.” I whispered, more to myself, “And… hi, self, thank you for being the brave Dujun…,” I sat on the couch while turn on the television. This moment, I couldn’t describe myself more, besides: COMPLETE.

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[MIINAH]

My name is Choi Miinah. Now, I feel so full of myself. Now, I am a woman. Now, I have found someone that cherishes me incredibly. What I want next besides living by his side forever? Having a nice family, and becoming an old couple until we have grandchildren. How nice my life will be. Yes, if destiny says so, everything can happen. I washed the dishes while imagining about future we would have been through. But, came to my realization, that those things would go nowhere, expect in my imagination. I sighed, and back to eye the dirty bowl when I saw the diamond ring shone so brightly there. I smiled. I don’t know love, all I know is I will take this moment to my embrace and walk by his side happily without thinking too much about tomorrow which probably would never come to me again.

I had finished washing the dishes when I heard a snore came from the living room. I turned my face to him. I giggled when saw Dujun sleeping on the couch with head leaned back to the wall and his legs on the table. His mouth opened a little, and produced the snore. You don’t know how happy it is hearing someone you love snoring in front of you? Yeah, I love it that I could kill a lion. Oh, pardon my exaggeration. But, for sure, I love seeing him like this.

He must be tired. Yet, he still lied to me, saying that he was not tired at all. I hate him yelled to me, but lying was the worst thing ever. I still could feel how he embraced me when I cried in the kitchen just now and crawled to the ground to feel the pain of seeing him tired of me, but he just couldn’t tell it clearly to me, moreover he yelled to me when my body was not in good state. He hugged me while patted my back, and saying “I am sorry. Let’s eat first. Ehmm?” I just cried, cried, and cried when he lifted me from the floor with his muscle hands, and brought me to the couch in bridal style. I didn’t have any courage to see him, and just crying like a toddler there, until he served all the dishes on the table in front of me. He ate his own without paying attention to me. I saw him eating the abalone porridge, it looked so tasty. When I sat there blankly, I heard the very voice of my stomach. He chuckled, and said “You may cry after you eat the porridge. I know you are hungry after throwing up like that.” made my cheeks red. Then, I sat beside him, ate the porridge in silence.

I don’t know he prepared this ‘porridge ring’ event.

I eyed him while taking the remote control from his hand and turned off the television. I sat beside him, looking at his perfect face, although there was saliva dripped on the corner of his lips, I still felt that he looked so damn handsome. I patted my own head, “Hyaa, Miinah, neo… this is not the first time you see him like that, why you keep adore him this much?” I chuckled a little and then stood from my place, and took Dujun’s feet which were on the table to place it on the couch, and took his head to lean on the other side of the couch while taking a pillow from the carpet and put it under his head. He moved for taking the better sleeping position while humming. I stopped from my stuff and realized he was still sleeping soundly, I removed his socks, and unbuttoning his shirt, to change it into t-shirt he usually wore when he decided to sleep over at my apartment. Well, everything was done, and to my surprise now I felt better, and didn’t want to throw up again. I came to the laundry room, and put Dujun’s shirt and socks to the washing machine, set the time and finished. I smiled to myself when remembering what Doctor Sunggyu ahjussi said “Once you discharge from the hospital, you can feel your stomach wants to vomit so bad which is called nausea. This is because you lying on the hospital bed for such long period. So, you need to bear it, and there’s no medicine can really cure it.”

No, ahjussi, someone here have already cured me.

I stepped back to the living room, and sat on the carpet on the floor while eyeing his gorgeous presence in this room. I caressed his cheek softly.

“Hmm…” he moved slowly, opened his eyes, “hmm… Miinah…, am I falling asleep?” he asked in husky voice.

“Yup. Even you snored.” I giggled. “Back to sleep, Duj. I have changed your shirt, and tomorrow it will be ready to be worn again.” I smiled. “Go sleep, it’s two in the morning, you need to filming tomorrow.” I said, pushed his chest, make him back flat to the couch.

“Sleep here with me…” he whispered, gripped my wrist.

“I can’t… my body…,” I said, “but, for tonight, it’s an exception.” I smiled and sat on the edge of the couch, and positioned myself to lay beside him. Once I laid there, he pulled me into his embrace.

“Wife, let be like this forever.” He mumbled while back to shut his eyes. I inhaled and exhaled, trying to get the best word to reply him.

“Just let us finish the coffee slowly when it’s still hot, husband.” I said, and followed him, came in to the slumber with a tear slipped on the corner of my eyes.

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to be cont