She slapped me.
“Why…,” I
sighed. “You still love me. You can’t lie to me.” I said.
“I do not love
you.” She said. “I’m not lying right now.” She tried to open the door. “Open
it!” she looked at my face with a scary facial expression.
“I won’t.” I
answered. “Stay here.”
“Dujun-ahh,
listen me, we are strangers to each other.” She said. “If we are trying to
continue this relationship, we gonna hurt each other.” She sobbed, “Don’t you
understand it?”
“I do not
understand.” I said.
“No. It’s not
like you do not understand it. But, you do not want to understand it,
Dujun-ahh.” She took a breath for a while, “It’s already a year. You should have
forgotten me.”
“But, look, you
never forget me.” I said. The kiss between us just now was the proof. “I can
feel your… kiss.” I continued.
“But, I have…,”
she cut my words, “forgotten you.”
“You haven’t.” I
believed Miinah still loved me, all this time.
“I have.” She
took my right hand, “Dujun-ahh, forget me, please.” She looked at me, “now,
open the door.”
“Miinah-ahh…” I
called her name, I missed her so much, and how could she do this to me? “Let me
sit here, beside you, for awhile.” I continued.
“Dujun-ahh…” she
nodded, “araseo.” Then she avoided my
gaze.
I couldn’t think
any other than stare at her. I missed her. Although she slapped me while saying
she did not love me, her kiss was still the same.
I could feel it.
She loved me.
---
I saw her walked
in the middle of darkness. It was already past midnight. I tried to stay on my
seat. But, my mind couldn’t feel at ease. Without realizing it, I had opened
the door, and walked fast to her side. She looked at me, startled.
“Do not
complain.” I said.
“I can go home,
alone.” She said, “The subway is right in the front.”
“Don’t you think
it is better to go home with me?” I asked, insisting to drive her home.
“I won’t.” she
said, “back to your car.”
“I will company
you.” I said. “I can let the car park there.” I didn’t care at all; I wouldn’t
let my very precious girl in danger. This was midnight; there would be many bad
people out there.
“Dujun-ahh!” she
looked frustrated, “we are not a couple anymore.”
“Who cares..?” I
walked beside her. “You looked thin.”
“Shut up.” She said,
“or I will slap you again.”
“I don’t care.”
I said, “I don’t care if you are going to slap me hundreds more.” I winked.
“Iyuuuh.” She
walked faster, left me behind, “do not follow me.”
“Hyaaa, babo-ya,
I can walk faster than you.” I walked faster, and already in her side again.
“Dujun-ahh, stop
it.” She said.
I touched her
hands. “Listen me.” I said.
“Let me go!” she
screamed.
“Miinah-ahh, do
you want to feel the heart sick for ten years or twenty years or your entire
life?” I asked, being so freaking frustrated.
“Why? Because of
what?” she asked. She tried so hard to let her hands go.
“Because you
still love me.” I said. I didn’t know what happen to me. I just wanted her –wanted
this girl so badly.
“I do not.” She said,
“Stop talking about this stuff.”
“Miinah-ahh.”
“Shut up, go
catch the train with me, or do not go with me, back to your car.” Miinah walked
away. She looked so pissed off.
“I will shut my
mouth.” I said.
Silently I
walked behind her.
---
Miinah sat in
the train. She didn’t talk at all, listening to her i-pod using headset. I sat
beside her. Because it was a late train, there were no many people here. I kept
watching her. She looked sleepy. Miinah didn’t even see me. She acted as if I
was not here. I didn’t really care.
“Pluk.” Miinah’s
headset fell from her left ear. I saw her. She had been falling asleep. I took
it, plug it on my ear, I got shocked, this was my voice…
At that time… I
made it… for her….
I looked at her
peaceful face; I kissed her forehead, and put her head on my shoulder. I held
her hand.
Babo-yaa, you still loved me.
---
[to be continued]
