Friday, December 28, 2012

[CURRENT FAVE SONG] TRY - PINK

This is the song I currently love and listen to, TRY by PINK. Yeah, I like it so much that I always spare time to turn it on my playlist, even when I work on my thesis, write my fanfic, or just randomly do stuffs. Yeah, I love what is written in this song's lyric.... Hmm, so freaking love this song I don't have any idea. *-*

Ever wonder about what he's doing
How it all turned to lies
Sometimes I think that it's better to never ask why

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Eh, eh, eh

Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy
Even when it's not right

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

Ever worried that it might be ruined
And does it make you wanna cry?
When you're out there doing what you're doing
Are you just getting by?
Tell me are you just getting by by by

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

You gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try

Check the video here: full official video | official lyric video

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Thursday, December 27, 2012

[PIC] DUJUN AND BASKET BALL

He plays soccer, yess, we know it already. What happen when he found a basket ball instead of a football? No wonder, he kinda losing on dribble, and kick it instead. Kekeke, my lovely man I love him. Credit photos goes to Head via loveyboy_dj on twitter and reup by me. Here, they are: 




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Tuesday, December 25, 2012

[FANFIC] "I DON'T KNOW LOVE" part 26



[DUJUN]
I saw her ate the porridge slowly, gulped it down without making any noise. Now, both of us were sitting side to side on the carpet in the dim living room. The table in front of us full of side dishes like kimchi and tofu, and also two glasses of herbal medicine. I caressed the corner of her left eyes when I saw a trace of tears there. She just remained silent. “I am sorry….” I whispered. She still busy with her porridge and didn’t care to look at my face. “I am truly sorry.” I repeated. As the shine of moon entered the room, I could see her flat face; I don’t know what exactly happen to her….
Suddenly she put the spoon on the table, drank the herbal medicine, and wiped her lips. She moved closer to me, I could feel her arms touched mine. I looked at her who was not even once seeing my eyes. I eyed her moving, and my heart skipped a beat when she leaned her head to my right shoulder, and lingered her hands on my waist. It’s not a matter of how long you have been with the one you love, but as the skin ship happen you just can’t ignore that you feel nervous and happy at the same time. Yeah, that was what I feel every time being with Miinah.
She tightened her embrace, and breathed on my chest, I hugged her shoulder. I could feel our heart beat in sync. The room was silent, but both of us busy hugging each other, feel our own love affection toward each other. Without word from our lips and without any force to love each other, we were trying to repair our relationship with the invisible love potion that I suspected being poured by God just now to this room.
I smiled.
She hummed, looked at my eyes finally, and smiled.
“I am sorry for earlier….” She uttered. “I hate you yelled to me like that.” She continued, while intertwined our fingers.
I nodded, ruffled her hair, and smell the nice fragrance of her shampoo. “Me too, sorry for yelling.” I looked at her teary eyes, “don’t cry like that anymore.” I blinked. “You made me afraid.” I said.
“Sorry. I just can’t control it. You said you were tired, but minutes later you said you were not.” She inhaled. “What a liar.” She hissed.
“Yeah, I know I am a bad liar.” I giggled. “Have you done eating?” I checked on her bowls. “It’s still half of it. You need to finish it, Miinah.”
“I’m full.” She said, patted her tummy. “You eat yours. Palli….” She took my bowls, and got a spoonful of porridge and forced it to my lips. “Aaaaaa….” I chuckled seeing her like that. Without realizing it, I parted my lips, and she successfully feed me. “Yeay, you need to finish it!” She smiled, while preparing the next feeding. I pinched her cheek, made her yell “Hyaa… Dujun-ahh… neoapaaa…!” I slid my tongue and reached her bowl.
“Now, time for you to eat yours… aaaaa….” I put the spoon deep into the base of the bowl. Yeah, I get it. “Open your mouth, princess…. aaaa….” I delivered the spoon into her mouth, and….
“Ugh… what is it?” Miinah blinked her eyes, “What is it… in the porridge?” She opened her mouth and took something out from it. I chuckled a little. “Dujun-ahh, what is it…?” She widened her eyes when she saw a ring on her hand. “Dujun-ahh… what is it?” She looked at me, surprised. “A ring?” She eyed the ring, didn’t know what to do.
I took the ring from her hand. And cleaned it with the tip of my shirt, and placed it on her left ….finger. “Will you marry me?”
She blinked her eyes, opened them, and widened them.
“Will you?” I said, once again.
She just looked at me, stiffened like a robot, and didn’t even make a single move.
“Well, it seems you reject me,” I made a sad face, “I will take the ring back.” While pouted my lips. Suddenly, she held my hand; I took a look at her face, she was almost crying but happened to wipe the tears, and laughed.
“Hyaaaa…. Who will think to propose by giving a porridge ring?” She patted my left arm.
“Porridge ring?” I asked, “This is made from diamond, you know.” I caressed the ring.
“Oh my God, babooooyaaaaa…. I mean, who will think to give a ring by hiding it in the porridge….!” She hugged me, “I do. I do.” She continued.
“And… I have this…,” I ran to my bag on the kitchen table, I took a paper from it. “Look.” I handed the paper to her whose eyes got widened again.
“O my God, are you serious? We are just twenty four… and we are doing it now?” She almost jumped from the carpet when she read what was written in the paper.
“We are twenty five in Korea –yeah, twenty four internationally. But, we are mature enough to sign that!” I said while pecked her lips. “Will we fill the paper? And then… registered our marriage?” She sobbed to make me surprise, “Why?” I asked.
“Hmm… let’s sign this marriage certificate after I have been kneeling down to your parents, after I have been thanking them to deliver a man like you in this world, and after I have been giving your nuna the best knitted sweater I made.” She licked her lips, “Is it okay?” she continued.
“Do what you want….” I nodded, “But, first, will you move to my parents’ house?” I asked who was replied by her humming. Then, she slightly nodded.
“I will.., but after you met my dad.” She said. I smiled full with the content of happiness. I could feel I was less tired now. And, for her surprise, her dad had known this event because he was the one who gave me suggestion to do this ‘late porridge proposal’. Yeah, he proposed Miinah’s mother in the same way. After Miinah got angry at me, I called her dad, and he suggested me to propose her, which was already on my plan that night. I drove fast to the ring shop I had ordered to make the diamond ring for this ‘I-don’t-know-when-will-happen-event’ around three weeks ago. And now, the ring already on her finger, and I love it!
“I will.” I said.
“I love you!” She said while hugging me, and sniffed my neck. “Now, am I your wife?” She whispered to my earlobe.
“…” I didn’t know the answer because we hadn’t signed the marriage certificate and hadn’t held the wedding ceremony. So, I thought we were not legal yet now. Don’t you think so?
Baboyaaaa…. We haven’t official yet!” She patted my arms. “How could you think so long just to answer that?”
“Ehm… because I don’t see any difference between you become my wife or just simply the girl I love most in this earth…” I said, shyly, “I mean… I have loved you for all this time, and will keep going to love you…!” I smiled brightly, opened my hands, and offered her to come to my embrace.
“I love you… I love you…!” She cried in happiness. “No matter what happen next I want to see you smile like this, Dujun-ahh, araseo, my husband?”
I could feel my cheeks reddened as she said ‘my husband’… I don’t know whether it is a dream or reality… all I know is I cherish this special moment like there’s no tomorrow.
“How about we move to the next level?” I teased her.
“What?” She looked at my eyes, “What do you mean?” she asked.
“There…” I moved my chin toward her bedroom direction.
“Hyaaaa… pervy… neooo….. andwae…. We haven’t been a legal married couple, you know!” She punched my chest, and took the bowls and glasses and stuffs. “I will wash the dishes; you can help yourself calming down your dirty mind.”
I laughed loudly, “Hyaaa I am kidding you know… do you think we never do that before?” I jokingly kicked her back side.
“Ehm… what we did before was different with the-move-to-the-next-level term you have made just now, you know!” She pouted her lips, and walked to the kitchen, while I eyed her, and sighed.
“Miinah, I love you.” I whispered, more to myself, “And… hi, self, thank you for being the brave Dujun…,” I sat on the couch while turn on the television. This moment, I couldn’t describe myself more, besides: COMPLETE.
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[MIINAH]
My name is Choi Miinah. Now, I feel so full of myself. Now, I am a woman. Now, I have found someone that cherishes me incredibly. What I want next besides living by his side forever? Having a nice family, and becoming an old couple until we have grandchildren. How nice my life will be. Yes, if destiny says so, everything can happen. I washed the dishes while imagining about future we would have been through. But, came to my realization, that those things would go nowhere, expect in my imagination. I sighed, and back to eye the dirty bowl when I saw the diamond ring shone so brightly there. I smiled. I don’t know love, all I know is I will take this moment to my embrace and walk by his side happily without thinking too much about tomorrow which probably would never come to me again.
I had finished washing the dishes when I heard a snore came from the living room. I turned my face to him. I giggled when saw Dujun sleeping on the couch with head leaned back to the wall and his legs on the table. His mouth opened a little, and produced the snore. You don’t know how happy it is hearing someone you love snoring in front of you? Yeah, I love it that I could kill a lion. Oh, pardon my exaggeration. But, for sure, I love seeing him like this.
He must be tired. Yet, he still lied to me, saying that he was not tired at all. I hate him yelled to me, but lying was the worst thing ever. I still could feel how he embraced me when I cried in the kitchen just now and crawled to the ground to feel the pain of seeing him tired of me, but he just couldn’t tell it clearly to me, moreover he yelled to me when my body was not in good state. He hugged me while patted my back, and saying “I am sorry. Let’s eat first. Ehmm?” I just cried, cried, and cried when he lifted me from the floor with his muscle hands, and brought me to the couch in bridal style. I didn’t have any courage to see him, and just crying like a toddler there, until he served all the dishes on the table in front of me. He ate his own without paying attention to me. I saw him eating the abalone porridge, it looked so tasty. When I sat there blankly, I heard the very voice of my stomach. He chuckled, and said “You may cry after you eat the porridge. I know you are hungry after throwing up like that.” made my cheeks red. Then, I sat beside him, ate the porridge in silence.
I don’t know he prepared this ‘porridge ring’ event.
I eyed him while taking the remote control from his hand and turned off the television. I sat beside him, looking at his perfect face, although there was saliva dripped on the corner of his lips, I still felt that he looked so damn handsome. I patted my own head, “Hyaa, Miinah, neo… this is not the first time you see him like that, why you keep adore him this much?” I chuckled a little and then stood from my place, and took Dujun’s feet which were on the table to place it on the couch, and took his head to lean on the other side of the couch while taking a pillow from the carpet and put it under his head. He moved for taking the better sleeping position while humming. I stopped from my stuff and realized he was still sleeping soundly, I removed his socks, and unbuttoning his shirt, to change it into t-shirt he usually wore when he decided to sleep over at my apartment. Well, everything was done, and to my surprise now I felt better, and didn’t want to throw up again. I came to the laundry room, and put Dujun’s shirt and socks to the washing machine, set the time and finished. I smiled to myself when remembering what Doctor Sunggyu ahjussi said “Once you discharge from the hospital, you can feel your stomach wants to vomit so bad which is called nausea. This is because you lying on the hospital bed for such long period. So, you need to bear it, and there’s no medicine can really cure it.”
No, ahjussi, someone here have already cured me.
I stepped back to the living room, and sat on the carpet on the floor while eyeing his gorgeous presence in this room. I caressed his cheek softly.
“Hmm…” he moved slowly, opened his eyes, “hmm… Miinah…, am I falling asleep?” he asked in husky voice.
“Yup. Even you snored.” I giggled. “Back to sleep, Duj. I have changed your shirt, and tomorrow it will be ready to be worn again.” I smiled. “Go sleep, it’s two in the morning, you need to filming tomorrow.” I said, pushed his chest, make him back flat to the couch.
“Sleep here with me…” he whispered, gripped my wrist.
“I can’t… my body…,” I said, “but, for tonight, it’s an exception.” I smiled and sat on the edge of the couch, and positioned myself to lay beside him. Once I laid there, he pulled me into his embrace.
“Wife, let be like this forever.” He mumbled while back to shut his eyes. I inhaled and exhaled, trying to get the best word to reply him.
“Just let us finish the coffee slowly when it’s still hot, husband.” I said, and followed him, came in to the slumber with a tear slipped on the corner of my eyes.
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to be cont

Monday, December 24, 2012

[FANFIC] "I DON'T KNOW LOVE" part 25



[DUJUN]
“Miinah?” The room was dim. I opened the door widely and entered the room. There was even no one lamp turned on. I removed my shoes, and wore the slippers that used to be mine. “Miinah?” my voice echoed the dim room. “Are you here?” I asked louder. “Miinah?!” no one answered me when I heard the sound of water flushed on toilet. I sighed in relief. “Miinah, are you okay?” I walked toward the bathroom slowly. The door opened slightly, and I could see a thin figure stood there, but suddenly she was back to the bathroom while gripping her stomach. “Miinah?” I ran toward her.
“Hoeeekkk… ugh…” I saw her throwing up everything in her stomach to the toilet. “Ugh…” She was on her knees while doing the stuff, and I rubbed her back, trying to help her. “Ehmm… Dujun-ahh…, Help me take my medicine please…!” she said while wiping her lips. “Ugh… I want… hoeeek…” she threw up again when I reached the table on which her medicines were. I took a glass of water on the side of them while walking fast to the toilet.
“Miinah…” I helped her to sit and flush the toilet. “Are you okay?” She nodded. “These are the medicines.” I handed the pills and the glass.
“Thank you.” She tried to reach my hands, but I could see her hands were trembling.
“No. I will feed you.” I said, short. “Open your mouth.” I saw Miinah widened her eyes. “I don’t have time to argue with you.” I demanded. She slightly opened her mouth; I took the medicines and helped her to gulp down the water. “Now, let’s go to bed.” I said, held her shoulder. She tried to stand up on her feet while gripping her stomach. “Do you want to throw up again?” I asked. She shook her head.
“No.” she said, “I…,” before she ended her words, I could feel her body shivering so badly.
“I will carry you.” Without any agreement from her, I carried her in a bridal style, I saw her eyes which eyed me, she lingered her hands on my neck. “How about you live with my family in Ilsan?” I asked her, trying to sound not so demanding.
“Why?” she asked in a low voice after landed safely in her bed.
“Because I can’t let you live alone like this.” I said, sitting on the edge of the bed. “You know, you will have Duri nuna, or eomma to help you.”
“I don’t…,” she held her breath, “need help.”
“What?” I looked at her moist eyes, “After what happened just now? If I were not here, what will you do?” I frowned.
“I…,” she uttered, “But your mother, your sister, they will get burdened of me.”
“They will not!” I yelped.
“Why did you yell to me?” she said every words with pressure.
“I did not!” I stood and looked at her.
“Go out, Dujun!” she pointed the door, “I want to sleep.” She continued.
“Miinah-ah… I am sorry…,” I walked toward her, “I am just so… tired.” I said, couldn’t find the right word.
“I said: GO OUT. LEAVE ME ALONE!” she yelped and covered her body with the blanket. “I don’t have energy to argue with you.” She mumbled.
“Miinah-ahh…” I tried to squeeze her shoulder.
“Please….” She said. “Me too, Dujun-ahh, tired as well.”
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[MIINAH]
How come he said he was tired… in front of me just now. How come…? I knew he was tired. I knew it perfectly… that I was a burden for him. How could… he yell to me…? I knew his schedule was no joke, and he still needed to take care of me. What kind of girlfriend I am…?
I wiped the tears that formed on the corner of my eyes, and pulled the blanket closer to my body. This night was as cold as my heart. I hated myself for being so fragile. I sighed. I couldn’t shut my eyes off. It must have been an hour after Dujun closed the front door and left me alone. I felt want to throw up again that made me hastily kick the blanket and ran to the toilet.
When I finished the stuff, I heard the door knob being opened. I stiffened on my feet. I saw a tall figure wore the slippers; he brought a black plastic bag. He walked slowly to the kitchen while unbuttoning one or two of his shirt. He didn’t notice me standing here because of the dim light I guess. Or, probably he was to absorb with his own thoughts. I saw him took a glass from the cupboard. Soju? I tried to get the better vision but it failed. I could hear he took bowls as well, and a set of spoon. He opened the plastic bag while trying to turn on the light.
“Dujun.” I whispered, and walked to the kitchen. He turned on his body to face me.
“Hi.” He faked smile, “you wake up already?”
I just nodded. “What are you doing?” I eyed the stuffs he bought.
“These are abalone porridge for you and herbal medicine.” He said, not looking at my face, and back to his work, put the porridge to the bowls and poured the medicine to the glasses.
“Why you bought two of each?” I asked, got closer to him.
“It seems I need it too.” He smiled, “And… I am sorry for earlier.”
“Why don’t you go back to your dorm?” I said, helped him prepare the late supper. “You should take a rest. You are tired.” I said, trying to sound calm.
“Miinah… sorry for earlier… I am not tired at all.” He said, lying to me.
“Liar!” I rather yelped. “Why must have you always lied to me?” I shed tears.
“Miinah…!” he tried to reach me. “What happen actually with you?”
“Why, Dujun-ahh? Why?” I couldn’t handle this feeling anymore. I cried while gripping my skirt. “Why you need to lie to me every time?” I wiped my tears. “If you are tired, say it to me, loudly!” I patted his chest. “Why….” I crawled to the floor. “Why….”
“Miinah….”
“I am sorry for coming to your life…” I cried; let the tears of mine fell to the floor. “I am sorry….”
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to be cont

Thursday, December 20, 2012

[COVER-AUDIO] SECRET'S TALK THAT


Wohoooo my another creepy song cover --doodooong!
This time is the song from Secret that I'm in love with, Talk That, yeay!
*if you decide to listen to this, please use headset lol*

[Today's Pic] Today's Google I Love It!

pic taken by me - not for commercial uses

[Today's Story] 4:16 121220

Hi, world...

It's already morning again... and already Thursday again... and the day of pre-booked Mubank ticket... and I still don't know what kind of ticket I should buy... and I don't know how much the chance I can go to there. Yeah, it's not matter of money, it's a matter of responsibility, meanwhile I am still working on my thesis and hoping I will be able to finish it before March 9 (next year). 

Hmm, if I decide not to go, I can't guarantee how hurt my heart will be, because the one I love is going to be there... BEAST... and of course, Yoon Dujun. 

Imma watch movies later on the cinema -5cm it will be great. 
Dayuuum~



Wednesday, December 19, 2012

MIDNITE

Hi, dear, Dujun...
Do you read this?
Do you?
Do you?

I don't even feel it...

[MV REVIEW] POMEGRANATE IN CAFFEINE MV

Hi, it happens I have a question from my beloved @/amarvica on twitter which still has relation with Yoseop's Caffeine MV: 'What does the meaning of pomegranate which appears in the beginning of this MV?' Ehm... at first I didn't see this fruit there, but after watching it again, yeah here they are:


Actually pomegranate symbolized many kind of things, depend on the conceptual significance. The most famous one comes from the Ancient Greek Literature:
The pomegranate appears many times in Greek mythology. It is most famous in the story of Persephone and is known in classic Greek myth as a symbol of fertility and bounty. To summarize the story, Hades, king of the underworld, takes Persephone to the underworld. Demeter, goddess of crops and Persephone's mother, became enraged and stopped crop growth. Zeus then ordered the release of Persephone. Hades, before she leaves, forces her to eat pomegranate seeds and thus doomed the goddess to the underworld for a portion of every year. From then on, while Persephone is underground, agricultural growth stops and the world turns dry; when she rises back to the world, the earth begins producing an abundance of crops and flowers. Hence, Persephone's eating of the pomegranate seed represents the changing of seasons; her rise to earth represents spring and rejuvenation; her descent represents the winter's approach and death. Pomegranates, thus, symbolize fertility, resurrection, and fruitfulness while also being the significance of changing times and seasons.(EHOW)
So, I can conclude that the pomegranate in this MV is to show us the meaning of changing times and seasons. Why? Because according to the concept of this MV and the story line, we can see that Yoseop is happen to having through all the 'moving on thingy' from his beautiful love relationship into a single/solo. This means the changing times of his life. That's why the pomegranate appears in the very beginning of this MV after Yoseop paying enough attention to the sheep/lambs to show us the setting time. Kekeke. I mean, the setting time is after they break up, and in the middle of going to 'move on'. Well, yeah, he still stuck there thou. Look, the knife on them and stuck on the table, wohoo. Stuck, stuck, and stuck. The time stuck there - s t u c k.

Read the previous complete review here: mv review yang yoseop's caffeine: is caffeine bad?

[Today's Story] If I am Not Useful Anymore




If I am not useful anymore, what should you do?
If I am not useful anymore, will you stay by my side?
If I am not useful anymore, will you leave me?
If I am not useful anymore, will you ditch me?
If I am not useful anymore, will you still love me?
If I am broken, will you fix me?
Friends, you, fix me, please.
Oh no, I don’t have friends.
Thanks, Lord.

-bebebebeauty-

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

[Today's Story] unstoppable caffeine consuming



Woke up on my bed, found myself lying alone, I saw the ceiling, and found myself amaze with this another new day. Today, what should I do... what should I finish… what kind of thing I had missed yesterday… Yeah, the thoughts came to me like an unstoppable storm. Today, I have an appointment with friends to go to ‘noraebang’ since we still have a free pass card to be used. Yeah, I bet today I will just go and take some airs from the long road I will have taken to reach there. Ehm, then I clicked on my playlist after doing some exercises (with my body art DVD), and the song happened to Yoseob’s Caffeine. Well, the very floating song among others. I mean, when you listen to it, you are gonna find yourself stuck on a very weird box and you just wandering there like a fool. That’s what I feel every time listening to this song. I don’t know why, but the rhythm, music, and Yoseob’s voice always successfully bring me to the highest hangover. Then this morning, I am still struggling to get rid of this. But, my life is full with unstoppable caffeine consuming. So, yeah, I bet, I may just accept what I should have taken.