I didn’t really know what happened to me last night. I tried to open my eyes, but it felt so heavy. I felt so dizzy. I tried to wake up, but I could feel a hand on my stomach, and it held my hand so tightly. I couldn’t move, it felt so heavy on my body. Whose hand this was? I was trying to open my eyes now, like really. The owner of that hand now had moved, and I caught his eyes. My eyes almost popped out from their place when I knew whose the owner of this hand was.
“Hi.” He said.
“I’ve been watching you wake up.” He continued.
I tried to back
off from him, but he held my hand tightly. I tried to take my sense back. I
looked at where I was lying right now, in the couch in front of TV which was
still on. The table in front of me full with snacks, and soju. Now, I could remember a lit bit of this scene. I must be had
drunk last night. But, the one who was beside me last night was not him, but
Junhyung. And now, how could he was here, instead of Junhyung?
“Dujun-ahh, what
are you doing here?” I asked.
“What do you
think?” he asked me back, “I’ve been watching you wake up.” He said.
“No, I mean, you
shouldn’t be the one who is by my side…,” I still tried to recall what really
happened last night, “I don’t remember you were here last night.” I continued.
“I came just
now.” He said, easily.
“What?” I
couldn’t believe what I had heard.
“Yes.” He said.
“No, actually I came here early in the morning, mor-night.”
“How? Why?” Ahh,
I couldn’t think a single thing right now.
“I will tell you
everything if you wake up now, and take shower, because we need to go
somewhere.” He said, while standing in front of me, like a boss.
“I thought I had
showed you yesterday that we are not a couple anymore. We are stranger to each
other, Dujun-ahh, how could you order me around like I am belonging to you?” I
asked, sat on the couch while staring at him angrily.
“I don’t
remember I have given you the agreement with this one side-statement.” He said,
walked to the fridge, “And drink this, you need to sober up soon.”
“Dujun-ahh, we
have broken up!” I yelped.
“Who give you
permission to do that? I never accept such thing.” He walked to me, giving me
the orange juice.
“Where did you
get this orange juice? I haven’t bought any juice…” I took the orange juice, it
was true I need to sober up, but I didn’t remember had bought an orange juice.
“I bought it
when driving here.” He said, short.
“Uhkk.” I
coughed.
“Drink it
slowly, will you?” He patted my back.
“Why you bought
it?” I asked. This boy seemed come here with a proper preparation.
“Junhyung told
me to.” He answered made me cough again.
“What you guys
did actually…,” I sighed.
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“Miinah-ahh, can
you take shower faster?” I could hear Dujun yelped from outside of my bathroom.
“I need to take a bath too.”
“Why why?” I
answered while wearing my big t-shirt, “You can go home, and take a bath on
your own bathroom.” I yelped.
“I don’t think
so, why do I need to go home when I am already here?” He said, “Knock knock”
now he was busy knocking my bathroom door.
“I said WAIT.” I
opened the door, “Do it fast.” I said while got out from bathroom.
He bumped to me.
“Sorry.” He said. I tried to back off, and walked from other side, but both of
us got stuck on the door awkwardly. My hair was wet and the shampoo smelt so nice.
Meanwhile, Dujun smelt like beer. I just realized both of them made a seductive
fragrance. Dujun looked at me, and weirdly I stared at his face. I didn’t know
he got so thin, and looked so tired. His eyes looked like panda’s. Without
realizing it, I had touched his face, “why are you so thin…?” I whispered.
Dujun was stuck
on the wall, looked at me, got stiff like a statue. “You are thinner than me.” He
said after inhaled. He touched my shoulder, “look, I can feel your collarbone.”
He said.
“I am not.” I
said, while kept touching his face. I could feel his jaw which I missed so
much. I missed all of these… I missed him. I felt like I wanted to scream that
I missed him.
“You miss me,
right?” he said, surprised me. I tried to back off, but he held my hand with
his left hand, and touched my face with his right hand. He got me closer to his
body, “I can feel it, Miinah-ahh.” He said while slightly kissing me.
I wanted to back
off. But, Dujun held me so tight. He forced his love toward me in a very smooth
move. The fragrances of my shampoo and beer… got along well. The next second I
couldn’t remember why I welcomed him… once again… in my life.
God, punish me,
later.
Please, not now.
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Dujun laughed at
me. I patted his hand. “Wae?” I
yelped.
“Mwo?” he kissed my lips slightly.
“You kidding me,”
I said.
“Me? When…?” He locked
my body with his legs and hand, and kissed me, slightly, again.
“Why you keep
doing it?” I said while touched his lips with my finger, then touched mine. He hugged
me more tightly, and smiled. “Because I miss you.” He said. Kissed me again… slightly
again.
“Don’t you miss
lying in this bed like this?” he asked me, while touched my pony. He smirked.
“That… that…! You
ridicule me!” I said, acted as if wanted to back off. He laughed, but still
kept me on his embrace.
“Mian mian…” he said, “Hug you like this,
I feel like you get so thin…” his hands on my back… I could feel his legs on my
very pale legs-skin.
I touched his
back… hugged him so tight, and sank on his chest… “I…,” before I could control
it, I began to shed tears.
Dujun kissed my
head. He was trembling, “I have known everything, Miinah-ahh.” I could hear he
sobbed.
Both of us kept
silence for awhile.
“Dujun-ahh…” I
tried to talk while I tried to hold my tears fall.
“Ssst…” he
whispered, “I love you…”
I started to
cry, this moment… hurt me so much.
“Don’t ever leave me again, Miinah.” He said, “Do
not hide from me again.”
I nodded.
“Promise me.”
I nodded again,
again, and again. I couldn’t talk. I just hugged him. I cried on his warm hug.
I could feel our skins attached to each other. I thanked God for giving me this
awesome man in my short life.
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(to be cont)
