[FF] THE BEAST'S SKY: Under Arrest

Haneul sat beside Hyunseung who was driving calmly. She didn’t dare to ask any question although all words had already been in the tip of her tongue. For a second she looked at the beautiful boy and looked away through the window. The car walked smoothly on the road of Gangnam.

“What is it, Haneul ssi?” Suddenly Hyunseung asked Haneul out of his curiosity. He must know that Haneul had stared at him just now. “Is there something you want to ask?”

Haneul gazed him with a strong gaze. Hyunseung smiled and turned on the radio. “Wanna listen to some good songs?” Haneul knew the boy just tried to make everything easy for her, and him –both of them.

“You know, Hyunseung ssi, this is pretty awful that you turn on the radio to let me hear some good songs when I practically never get interested into music to melt down this awkward moment. So, just elaborate this situation, period.” Haneul frowned which made Hyunseung couldn’t hold back his laughter. “What?” Haneul crossed her hands in front of her chest.

“You are beyond adorable.” He whispered, Haneul felt that she blushed a little.

“I am… not.” She hissed. “But, if you really mean it, thank you.”

“Ha-ha-ha…,” Hyunseng laughed before taking the brake because of the traffic. “I know pretty well about Dujun. But, I don’t know that you are actually as interesting as him.” He closed his lips, trying to not laugh again, but failed. “I am sorry.” He sighed. “I just can’t…. So, you don’t like music?” He asked, in a funny way. “Pretty weird and nice…. Books maybe?”

Haneul looked at him in a daze. Books maybe? Of course I love books! “Can’t we just into the point, Hyunseung ssi? What are you doing here driving me to some place that I don’t know because this road doesn’t take me to my home?” Haneul still demanded an explanation of the weird today.

“Why? You don’t like to hang out with me?” He chuckled. “I am a quite good companion though.” He added. “I can even keep your secret.”

“Yeah, it is because you don’t talk a lot.” Haneul said in a fully sarcasm. “Do you?”

“Yeah,” He smiled. How many times have this guy smiled to me? Haneul rolled her eyes, something fishy happened here. “Because I don’t like to talk a lot, how bout we get to the more real stuff?” He let another smile form in his lips.

The car had stopped.

“Where is it?” Haneul looked to the shop in front of the parking lot where Hyunseung parked his car. “What is it about?” She asked the boy who supposed to sit still on his seat but he’s gone. “Huh, Hyunseung ssi?”

“Knock knock.” Someone knocked the window, and it was Hyunseung. “Come on. Let me show you something real.” And he opened the door for her. Haneul didn’t have any choice so she just got out from the car anyway.

She followed Hyunseung who walked fast to the shop. It was a clothes shop. Haneul still tried to connect the dots, when she saw them.

“What are you guys doing here?” Her jaw dropped.

“Unnie!” A girl with chubby cheeks and hair in bun hugged Haneul tightly. “I have missed you…, how are you?” She was Sohyun.

“Hi, unnie!” now it was Jihyun’s turn to hug me.

“Unnie!” And Jiyoon too.

“Yo!” Gayoon was as disrespect as ever. But then both of them smiled and hugged each other. “It’s been awhile. Everything’s okay, nuts?”

“Call me what?” Haneul pushed her. “Nuts?”

“And berries!” Jihyun pointed to Gayoon. And five of them laughed together.

“What are you guys doing here?” Suddenly reality snapped Haneul back and she recalled that these girls were too out of place being here with her and Hyunseung.

“Help you, nuts.” Gayoon said while hugging my shoulder. “Let choose some beautiful dresses for you.”

“For what?” Haneul asked, didn’t really know what was going on here and started to believe that there was no function of even trying to connect the dots. There was no even a dot here. It was completely a dark hole. She was completely lost.

“You will see later, unnie!” Sohyun smiled. “Just choose some you like…, ahh, I miss you a lot.” Haneul always couldn’t resist her sweet tone and the scent of strawberries which so much different with Haneul’s boring perfume scent.

“Is 4Minute doing well?” Haneul asked. Sohyun nodded and whispered something to her ear. “Really?” Then She looked at Jihyun.

“What?” She asked.

“Maknae said you have boyfriend now. Really?” Haneul asked in disbelief. “That guy from ZE:A? Hya…, congratulation!” Haneul laughed. “Any other with hot news?” She looked to the rest of the girls.

“I have.” Gayoon replied. “You.” She pointed to Haneul.

“Me?” She asked.

“You with the dress are the hot news. And it must be done in just an hour from now.” She read her wrist watch. “Wanna kind of help us, nuts?”

“Wha—” Haneul asked but ... “Don’t ask anymore!” Hyunseung yelped. “Help her out, girls!” With that the girls had taken Haneul to the world of clothes and dresses and stuffs, she couldn’t even breathe, and ask. She had been like a prisoner under arrest.

to be cont

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[FF] THE BEAST'S SKY: A Weird Day

Haneul loved any kind of movies, no exception whether it was drama or horror or action or anything else. But, this time Haneul couldn’t enjoy it. Why? The reason was… he watched the movie with a popular guy, called Lee Gikwang –freaking Lee Gikwang, the member of BEAST. It was not like she didn’t know and like him, but she felt the pressure of should have walked along with him. Haneul felt that she must help him to stay save that no one of his fan girls would recognize him. If he was Dujun, Haneul would never feel that way because you know, Dujun seldom asked her to go to cinema. If he really wanted to watch movie he would bring her the DVDs and watch it at home. Bored, yeah, but safe!

After two hours of watching the movie with masks on and sitting side by side, Haneul could finally feel the oxygen –ffuh, time is up, time to go!

“Gikwang ssi…,” Haneul looked at the guy who seemed in a daze, “Are… are… you okay?” Haneul asked when she realized Gikwang’s facial expression.

“Ah, yes, ah, I am okay –it’s just that the movie is… good.” He combed his hair with his fingers. “What is it, Haneul ssi?” Now he looked at Haneul who eyed him. “I know you want to say something. Go ahead…”

“Ehm… the movie had finished… now, may I go home?” Haneul asked.

“Uh, well, aren’t you… alit bit hungry, Haneul ssi?” Gikwang asked while arching one his eyebrows. Haneul looked at him in disbelief –what the heck?

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I thought Gikwang will bring me to a restaurant, or something like that, but what is it with amusement park in the middle of the day? It’s hot by the way –Haneul sat on a bench while waiting Gikwang who said that he needed to go to the toilet before buying the tickets to enter amusement park. She held a beef burger in her hands. She didn’t expect that Gikwang just merely wanted to buy her a set of beef burger when he asked ‘aren’t you… alit bit hungry, Haneul ssi?’ buhuuuu –my stomach growls, you know!

“Haneul ssi!!!”

Haneul heard voices called her name. She looked around to find the sources. There stood two boys, one was a bit shorter than the other one. “So there you are! Hi hi- annyeong!” the shorter one ran toward Haneul.

“Who are you?” Haneul couldn’t see the face because this guy was just like Gikwang wearing mask to cover his face. The other one did the same thing too. “Do I know you?” Haneul started to get frantic.

“It’s me, Yoseob.” The guy who claimed himself as Yoseob lowered his mask a little, “see?” and put it on again in lightening speed. “And me,” the other one opened his mask a second, “Junhyung-ie.” He chuckled seeing Haneul whose eyes opened widely.

“Guys! What the hell are you both doing here?” Haneul’s eyes started to search for Gikwang. “Where is Gikwang?” She asked. “He said… he wanted to…,”

“There is no Gikwang anymore! It’s now ours!” Junhyung said while embraced Haneul’s shoulder. “Kajaaa!” He screamed. Yoseob led in the front, walked lightly like a little kid.

“Wait –wait… what is it actually?” Haneul whispered to Junhyung. “What you guys trying to do, huh?” There was no an answer from Junhyung, he just completely ignored Haneul.

Haneul couldn’t stop these guys. She felt like she had tried all objects in this amusement park. Yoseob and Junhyung always had full energy –jumped from one place to another one. She could only follow both of them. “You know we have no schedule today, and because it is not in a holiday or weekend this amusement park rather quite, and it feels good, doesn’t it, Junhyung-ie?” Yoseob who suggested to ride another object with a trampoline and net and ropes and… –Haneul couldn’t even define them – linked his arms on her and Junhyung’s shoulders. “Are you ready for the next fun stuff?” He gazed both of his friends.

“I –I… can’t we…,” Haneul tried to whisper something.

“No... no… no… we are not stopping yet…,” Yoseob shook his head.

Haneul looked at Junhyung, wanting some helps, but the boy just shrugged his shoulders, “Sorry. I can’t help it.” Then he followed Yoseob who had already been ready to ride the next object. Haneul frowned and left a sigh.

Ugh. Haneul swept the sweats from her forehead, watching Yoseob and Junhyung playing with balloons. What happened today, seriously? Why these boys appeared before her nose one by one today? She knew that today they had a day off. But, this was not something to be expected if there really were something to expect though. If today were the day off of them, she should be with Dujun instead. Not with these freak guys. Oh yeah, she forgot. She had set the boundary with Dujun. She sighed. “Hi, guys, if you want to still play here and you don’t need me anymore, may I just go home?” Haneul asked in a loud voice made the boys ran towards her.

“Why? Do you have something to do at home? Busy of doing something?” Yoseob sat beside her.

Oh no! I don’t have anything to do. “Of course I do.” Haneul replied. “So, may I?” she asked.

“What business? We can help.” Cut Junhyung.

Oh no! Thank you! I have been busy handling you guys today. “Oh,” Haneul looked taken a back, stared at Junhyung, “Really? You wanna help me?” she stopped, watching Junhyung and Yoseob nodded in sync. “Help me serving my mom and sister at home…,” Haneul crossed her hands in front of her neck, “like a slave…. Oh really, guys? Do not kid me.” She then patted the boys’ hands.

Yoseob and Junhyung looked into each other faces. “Oh.” They hesitated. “We better back off.” Junhyung said while ignoring Haneul’s gaze. Haneul left a mocking smile.

“Well then, let someone take you home.” Yoseob smiled.

“Who?” Haneul asked. Is there another thing they plotting now?

“You will see once we get into the parking lot. Let’s go!” Junhyung and Yoseob dragged Haneul to the parking lot. The girl just couldn’t help but surrender. She got so much shocked when she knew who the ‘you’ that should take her home. He stood there in front of his car. Jang Hyunseung.

Oh, what a weird day!

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Darkness Becomes You

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I wake up to the sound of dog barking. I don’t really know it is the real dog which is barking or just me hearing it inside my unconscious mind during my slumber. I see the ceiling of my very room. This is white. I sweep my sweats away from my forehead and try to sit, panting and breathing fast. The clock reads twelve midnight.

As always.

I grab a bottle of mineral on the table beside my bed and gulp it down until I feel my throat is not dry anymore. I hear the rhythmical voice of my roommate’s breathing. She is in deep sleeping, I guess. I look at her in jealousy. I hope I can sleep at least as sound as her. Two hours are good enough. I just drifted off like thirty minutes ago and now already wake up. This is crazy. This thing always happens to me.

As always.

“Chloe…,” I hear the voice of my roommate.  She is eyeing me while pulling her blanket. “Are you okay?” She turns on the lamp by clapping his hands. “Is it another nightmare?” She continues, “Do you want me to pat you while sleeping?” She offers me some helps like always.

But, I just shake my head weakly. “No. Thank you, Mill.” I say while kicking my blanket away. “I’ll just go to the kitchen dorm to get some coffee. You go back to sleep.” I smile while crossing the room and leave Mill alone, to make sure I don’t disturb her nap. It has been bad after the attack and she needs to get some peaceful sleep before facing a new day tomorrow.

It’s different for me. I just can’t sleep. That’s usual habit and I don’t think I can go back to sleep until tomorrow so I better get myself couple cups of coffee before sitting in hours by the window of dining room where some of us usually and casually will talk about many things that happen around in the city or the government and playing ping pong or chess or just throwing each other cans of beer which the boys steal it from the bar around college corner. Sometimes, we just simply laugh at the stupid and hilarious TV program. And for me, I just simply love to sit here, see the trees, the darkness, and hear the sounds of dog barking or just the wind sound, while smelling the coffee on my hands.

“Haven’t gone to bed, Chloe?” Someone’s voice from my back jerks me. I turn my head to the direction of the sound. I see this tall guy with hazelnut hair and some sweats on his forehead. His warm chocolate or hazelnut or even black eyes, maybe, I don’t know, look at my eyes straight. He is Shayne, my only friend since childhood. “Another bad dream, huh?” He asks casually while sitting on the seat beside me. “Mind to tell me?” He brushes some hairs on my forehead.

“Just the dogs were barking.” I say. “Want some coffee?” I ask, offer him my coffee. “No sugar.” I add.

“Thanks.” He takes the mug and sips it and hands it to me again. “Why you still prefer no sugar, Chloe?”

“I don’t see any different whether adding the coffee with sugar or not,” I sigh, as the trees on the yard whooshed by the wind, “I still can’t go to sleep.”

“You better take some tea, then.” He says, laughing, showing his white teeth and I just shrug my shoulder. “Coffee makes you stay all the night, doesn’t it?”

“Perhaps.” I answer. “But, it gives me the sanity.” I add.

“True.” Shayne nods as both of us slowly attach to the sound of the wind whooshes the trees as the darkness starts to climb to the dangerous night.

“Did you go practice just now?” I ask in order to break the silence between us. “I see you sweating a lot.” I point his forehead.

“Yeah,” he replies, “you get the sanity with that coffee, me with the practice. It helps me a lot.”

“I know.”   I say.  I don’t know this is the right thing to do or not, but I just touch his hand and intertwine his fingers with mine. “All things will be alright.” I say, looking straight to his hazelnut eyes which warmly look at me back.

“Thank you, Chloe.” He says while bending to my face and I can feel a slight kiss from him on my cheek. I stay still, don’t know what to do. “Thank you again.” He repeats. I just nod and pretend to not make big deal of that sudden kiss he did.

“How is your dad doing?” I ask. “The government is starting to go crazy. This is not your dad’s fault.” I take some breathe. “Your dad is forced by the party he is in.”

“I know, seriously.” He says while intertwine my fingers with a stronger force. I don’t dare to break the arrangement. “After the attack, everyone turns out to blame dad. But, I know he is just there to be the puppet of his party.”

I don’t dare to speak, not even blink my eyes. This is true after this noon attack, Shayne’s dad which is the president of this country starts to be blamed over it. No one knows the real motive of that attack except the president himself and the parties and the rebels. We all know this rebellion has been started for decades and nothing happens as the result. And I personally know the president himself almost these twenty years of my life as a good and wise man. I don’t think he will be cruel one. He is a good president who loves to save the starving kids and all. He is no mean. That’s what I believe.

“Today’s attack is the scariest ever in my life.” I say, after a long pause from Shayne which I think he won’t continue to talk. “I don’t ever see the Guard Men raise their guns to the citizens.”

“The rebels want some justice over the death of one of their leaders.” Shayne frowns. “I don’t know what actually they want from the government.” He looks at me. “Don’t you think the government has given them what they need?” He asks. I look at him, taken a back, I don’t know what the right words to say as still there are many kids and family and individuals out there starving. It’s not like the government on fault, but you know, the habit of this country makes me tingle when every year they want some of the kids of the country to show up on the Learning Hall to make a line to be ready to go to army. For the poor they make a life by making their kids work for them. That’s what actually make them angry and start to rebel. Although, I am supposed that those parents have to work hard themselves, instead of their children. But, the government also doesn’t do enough by forcing those kids to go to army when they should be on school to get some standard knowledge. It’s not the president’s fault. It is the party’s fault.

It is the fault of my dad.

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[MV REVIEW] JIN'S GONE: THE LOVE IS NOT COMPLETELY GONE

Yesterday I watched the MV from Jin’s Gone starring EXO’s Xiumin and Yoojung. I found something interesting from this MV. Although I don’t know it can be included into review or interpretation but I want to elaborate this MV through my point of view and imagination.

So from my point of view, the MV tells us about a boy meets a girl and both of them fall in love into each other, precisely in the difficult and tough situation and place. Both of them meet in the house where they learn to play piano –I don’t know whether that is the girl’s house or not (it’s still a mystery for me LOL). Piano is so classic and not anyone can play it, so just say it that the condition both of them meet because of piano course they take is as the rare fate for both of them. The rare fate is continued into more complicated as the girl is actually blind and the boy suffering from the heart disease. Meanwhile their teacher is so strict. The place where they learn the piano itself is totally creepy as there is this old man standing on the gate waiting for those who come there. The place is totally on a high level of secrecy and not anyone can freely show and talk their minds and ideas. It has been shown by the way the old butler-man hushes the boy to stop talking when he asks ‘she can’t see?’ about the girl who tries to grab the candies which falls to the floor. Both of the girl and the boy can’t do anything on that place as there is this strict teacher with his wooden stick and the old butler-man who set his eyes on them. While, they can’t go out from that place if they want to keep always get along. 

On the other hand, my imagination makes my mind to think rather deeper about this MV. There are three persons in this MV which totally show different appearance: the boy, the girl, and the teacher. The boy can see clearly and very pure. The girl can’t see or blind and not really happy. While, the teacher can’t see clearly but tries to see better by wearing the spectacles. 

Judging from the boy’s appearance that loves to smile and curious about everything, I can see that he has a pure heart. He also loves to play a lot and shows interest to his surrounding and wants to help others a lot. The first thing makes me believe he portrays that trait is the appearance of the car which he rides, it’s white color. He then smiles to the old butler while slightly bowing. He can see clearly what is in front of his eyes and can’t stay still; he wants to interfere into others life although he knows that his own life is not that great as he suffers the heart disease. He can see thus he walks and lives his life to the fullest because he knows what he does.

For the girl, she is actually forced to get into playing piano. She can’t see but the teacher forces her to keep doing it. From her appearance, I can slightly tell that she doesn't really like what she currently does and wants to resist, but she just can’t. The girl is also portrayed by the car color, black, which means –for me–the anti of the white color, the blackened one, the ‘heart’ hurts a lot and sad. This girl is as the portrayal of those who can’t see their path clearly and is forced to do something and accept it blindly as they don’t know what they should do for their life. The one who force them is their society. As in this girl case, the teacher is as the demanding society symbolization and the girl herself is the walking shadow.

The teacher who wears the spectacles is actually can’t really see clearly but he is not completely blind, and he still can see better than the girl, but not as good as the boy. The spectacles here have great influence for me, as it is the only tool that can help the teacher to see. When the teacher wears the spectacles he starts to act as if he knows and sees what the boy and the girl do and starts to make his own conclusion and tries to separate them. With the glasses on him, he can be seen as the portrayal of society that his point of view changes into ‘what other can see is the more important than what he actually can see’. He actually sees and knows that those girl and boy love each other, but as the society says they are not meant to be, he starts to ignore his own perspective. But, in the end, after everything getting late and regretful, he throws his spectacles away which means he gives up on being someone else but he can’t change anything (when he continues to play piano after the boy being carried away to the car after passed away).

The boy who can see helps the girl who can’t see her path while giving her happiness (the candy) and also holds her hands to walk her with him. They are both happy of being together. But, there is no smooth way of life as fate plays on them. But, for the girl who smiles in the end, it means that she has already could see the slight light of love. That is a lot precious than just being together –you can always feel love cause it will always stay the same, be it with the one you love physically, or not. 

Love gives you another couple of eyes to see better. 

credit video: woolliment on youtube. 

[RANDOM THOUGHT] TROUBLEMAKER IS NOT PLAGIARIZING

Hi, good morning, peeps! 

This is actually a very nice morning until I read something that makes me go 'what? O_O duh, another close minded people and culture'. Well, first of all, my very own country fellows are also still trapped in this condition for saying like K-netizens that this video is plagiarizing that video from another country, etc. But, that kind of songs and videos have charted pretty well on their digital charts and YouTube. I see, all the same for us wherever your country is. 

Actually what I am talking about is referring to the case that Troublemaker's new MV 'Now' or 'There is no Tomorrow' being accused having similarities with Rihanna's 'We Found Love' by Korean netizens. Although, many people/fans internationally have recognized it, but they are precisely wiser. This is not plagiarism, this is just some kind of similar idea but not exactly the same -NOT THE WHOLE THING TO BE HONEST, YES? AND EVERYONE CAN FREELY USE THE FIREWORKS AND MAKING LOVE IN THE CAR SCENE IN THEIR MUSIC VIDEO BECAUSE THIS IS NOT SOMETHING NEW, OR NEW INVENTION IN THIS WORLD LIKE THOMAS ALFA FOUND LAMP BACK THEN. Sorry.

[MV REVIEW] TROUBLEMAKER'S 'NOW': THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

This is 19+ version MV and I shouldn't really spread it wider because there are still some underage Beauties around, right? But, I do really want to write this review/interpretation because there are some things really caught my attention. It has been such long time I haven't written a great interview of MV and I don't really know that it will be a good one or just a mere writing he-he-he. But, well let's move to my very state of minds. 

[FF] The Beast's Sky Poster

This was made by friend of mine (a Beauty)... ugh... she is so kind... hiks me get teary... thank you very much, Fika! ^^bb I will try to finish this one... he-he. Thank you once more!

[FF] THE BEAST'S SKY: A Norm

There… there… they started pick on me… there… there… bring me up to their gossip stuff. Haneul sat on a bench at college’s park, watching five until six girls planted their eyes on to her from the opposite desk. She sighed before finishing her cola and turned her head to her left side where this blond guy sitting like there was nothing wrong in front of his nose, facing his laptop, his hands were busy typing on keyboard. “Dongwoonahh, which one is better, me get captured in their cameras, or me throw this cola can to their faces?” Haneul asked, trying to distract Dongwoon from his research paper. Recently this guy asked her to help him writing –kind of—dialogue to finish his paper about film –or whatever it was, Haneul didn’t really understand and care. “Dongwoonahh, and I think I have been no used here, may I go home?” Haneul continued to talk but he kept ignoring me. It was almost an hour he kept her in this boring place, had a-glaring-and-gazing-and-seeing-and-eyeing-battle with those fan girls of him. Huh.

“Nuna, I don’t think both of them will give you any good benefit.” He suddenly said without looking up from his laptop.

“Huh? –” She looked at him, “What do you mean?”

“I mean… either you get captured in their cameras, or throw that can to their faces, there is no benefit. Once your picture gets taken with me, they are just gonna blur it, just like last time they took photo of me and you, ha-ha-ha, and if you throw the can, they probably will just ‘boo’ on you, nuna. Better don’t do both.” He chuckled. “You are actually safe, nuna, my fans in this college won’t harm you physically, or even dare post it on internet. I can guarantee. Just, endure their verbal attack, okay, nuna?” He seemed lecturing Haneul, made her role her eyes while crossing her arms in front of her chest.

[random] sudden thought

When people get no choice means that the doomsday.

[FF] THE BEAST'S SKY: Coffee Companion

It must have been the quietest days in Haneul’s life after her Dad’s funeral. She came to college like there was nothing wrong in her life –ever. She worked on research paper and finished it right before the deadline –yes, her life didn’t change at all. It was all pretty much the same. It was kind of strange when the witch –her step mother and her daughter – stayed quiet all the time. But, for her horror, Haneul knew that somehow both of them were in the middle of plotting something. That was why she kept on watching them and learnt the things from Kang attorney; if by any chance, there was another solution beside set her off to marry Yoon freaking Dujun in order to help her out from the penniless case.  

Haneul had finished her first period class and sat on the chair by the window in the café at college. She frowned to see people laughed and chattered as if the world had given them silver—gold—diamond—whatever those were, and never the world gave them tears. She sighed to the mouth of the coffee cup she held before sipped it. She turned her head to take a glance toward inside of café when Haneul realized there was a crowd in the corner. There was a man—boys, wearing a red sweater and another one with white shirt. The one with red sweater looked familiar. He smiled and held the pen in his right hand. He signed to the paper brought by some of girls who lined after him. But, he just got few of them. The entire pack had been booked by the white shirt guy. He completely got all the girls from the café and she felt sorry to the red sweater guy that he just got three more girls to get his signs. But, wait—he looked damn really familiar, Haneul took a better vision, did I have mentioned it before? He was Dongwoon. Son Dongwoon. Oh yeah, Haneul forgot, he studied at the same college as her.

[FF] THE BEAST'S SKY: The Shocking Request

Haneul didn’t know what time it was. She stood on the funeral hall beside her Dad photo who smiled widely which she knew she would never have had the chance to see it again. There was no tear anymore since she stood there ages ago and bowed to the guests every time her Dad’s friends and some of her college friends came to give the last gratitude with a slight smile. There was one thing had disturbed her all day, the fact that Yoon Dujun wasn’t here yet. Although, his group mates were all already here, first, Son Dongwoon who had been a great dongsaeng for Haneul, then Yang Yoseob who was in particular close enough to her, and Yong Junhyung who liked to chatter a lot but today he was quite less noisy and looked gloomy made Haneul feel bad too. Kikwang too, who liked to smile a lot today he looked sad. The last was Jang Hyunseung who was rather quite but funny boy, and the least close to her, but today was the exception because Haneul saw for the first time the boy smiled precisely only for her while saying: “Bad things will always come to an end. Be strong.” Haneul looked up at him and smiled with her teary eyes and muttered “Thank you” with a touched heart. Before Hyunseung left her alone, he even patted her shoulder. Haneul shook her head and smiled toward him before facing the other guests who came to meet Dad non-stop.  

Dongwoon came to her when there was no any guest. Haneul didn’t even realize that the BEAST boys were all here the whole time. She was close to them because she kept seeing them in their free time. To make it easy, BEAST was the only friends Haneul kept close as friends. “Nuna…,” whispered Dongwoon to Haneul who looked to the floor blankly. There was no reaction from Haneul that made Dongwoon held both side of Haneul’s body, shook it. Haneul who reckoned someone shook her body gazed him. “Nuna… come… time to take a rest…,” Dongwoon helped Haneul to stand up, “your mother and your sister…,” he turned his head to search for those only relatives Haneul had, “not here?” he hissed, “they are too much.”

[FF] 비스트 의 하늘 / THE BEAST'S SKY: The Falling Sky

This night was the gloomiest one. The darkness came along with the wild win that swooshed the trees which stood in front of a big house. The owner of the house was not around. There left a Madam and her daughter who were pretending and acting to be the real owners while a girl in her room waiting for the real master got home. The real master was none other than her Dad. The girl sat on the bang of the window, watched the moon which seemed looking back at her, shared the pity. Her Dad had married again –months ago her Mom had passed away– with a beautiful woman who brought a daughter whom she thought as awful one. Since the first day after the marriage, she had suffered a lot because of the new Mom and her beloved daughter asked her to run errand every time they saw a chance. She couldn’t get rid of them because Dad was not at home. He was away because of some overseas business.

Dad owned a big company which worked on entertainment industry. It was a lot like an agency. He had been a CEO for a long time. Many artists who were under his company had succeeded and decided to get their own ways in the industry. On the other hand, Dad would always have new stocks of young trainees who came to get the chance to practice under his company and dreamed big to be born as the next stars. Korea of course was very well known with its Idols and the never stopping production of new dancing machine idols, new impersonating idols, new powerful main vocal idols, new great rapping idols, etc. Dad would have never gotten bankrupt. She knew very well the reason that woman seduced and luckily got married to her Dad was none other than Dad’s bank accounts. Well, materialized by capitalist society, people now. Weren’t they? The girl left a big sigh before finally realizing there was a couple of eyes watched her over the gate of the front yard.

“Who is that?” She asked in a low voice. She could see a shadow-figure-like moved fast to the one of the tree on the side of the road and raised the hands. The girl tried to get better vision because there was no lamp shone on that figure. “Dujunie?” The girl smiled by herself. Her eyes widened when reckoned who the owner of those couple of eyes was. She walked faster to the door that linked her room with the porch and ran to the stairs which could bring her to the yard in no time. Walked through the green grass her Dad loved to water it every evening and opened the gate in a flash light speed, she got to the man’s embrace in second.

[MV REVIEW] GD'S 'CROOKED': CRYING IN THE END

Well, it's been for awhile (a month?) after reviewing BEAST's 'Shadow' MV and now I have been corrupted by an MV which is so profound. I mean, I like it a lot and I want to write some stuffs. And, YAHOO, GD, this is so great! Okay, this time is GD's new MV, CROOKED. Well, I'm not going to review 'Coup D'etat' kkk because I'm afraid that I will probably ruin the real meaning hehehe (well, my brain is not good enough cough). 

Soooo, this is the CROOKED MV from G-Dragon, take a sip first... eheheh:

Who doesn't know GD? Everyone knows him, right? He is the genius Big Bang leader. It must be quite weird because I am not a VIP but I'm writing about GD's MV. He-he-he. It is simply because this MV worth to be reviewed because he has given me (and maybe you) new (interesting) insight or if not he has supported my (some bad) habit(s) all this time. LOL. 

What am I talking about? You guys get curious? So, don't click your next tab, okay? But, it's okay if you dislike my interpretation. He-he-he. It's just for fun, anyway, words are just words as long as it's in our mind, the thought will always be there, won't go anywhere if you are not walking around talking about it. So, for those who decided to read this shit, please sit on your chair and just taste it. 

[RANDOM] AN OST FOR 'IDKL' FANFIC

Hi, guys, anyone who dropped by here must have somewhat read my IDKL fanfic? And here surprisingly, there is a song can be an ost for the fic because it so damn represents the story a lot ㅋㅋㅋ. The song is none other than BEAST's 'How to Love'. How I wish they had created the song was because really inspired by this fic. ㅋㅋㅋ. Anyway, they made a special MV for this song, catch it here:

'how to love, nan ajikdeo meoreugeusseo saranghan beon'

'how to love, I don't really know love'

I wanted to post it earlier, but I forgot easily. Hehe.

So, for those who love IDKL fanfic series, go check the song!!

^^;;; 비스트 짱!!!!!

[MV REVIEW] BEAST'S SHADOW: THE PAINFUL AND BEAUTIFUL LOVE

Hi, guys,

whoever you are,

finally, BEAST is back... 

Here, I will share some of my thoughts about 'Shadow' MV.  Check the MV first:

For this time I won't literally reveal the significance of things and stuffs found there. But, I will give more attention to the man and woman's roles in this MV. Both of them have significantly symbolized the 'shadow'.

[BEAST IS BACK] SHADOW (드림자) MV OFFICIAL

Beast is back... do you think I'll be able to review this MV?

[BEAST IS BACK] SHADOW (그림자) MV TEASER

Dujun's part 'because I'm shadow shadow shadow' me like it hehehe

The full MV and 2nd length album will be released online this July 19

Let's wait for their another hit coming!

[BEAST IS BACK] ALBUM COVER AND TRACK LIST

cr: cubeunited on twitter

Personally I like the album cover. But, I just lit bit disappointed because I have expected that the other members would have contributed to the album production such as writing lyric or composing. Yeah, all the songs after all are written, composed, and arranged by our rapper, Yong Junhyung, and his very well known friend, Kim Taejoo. Hope this second full length album gonna be great! Let's wait until July 19 haha!

[REVIEW] IRIS 2: REVENGE IS NO GOOD

Hi,

Guys, whoever you are,

It has been for awhile I am writing here. I want to share my thought about the recent Korean drama I have watched. Well, it has been finished months ago, but I'm just happen to watch. The reason is one of the NSS agents is Yoon Dujun and to watch his face on screen I do need courage. After all, I can face it, and I have finished watching it.

ALERT: HELP

Hi, guys, help to vote my pic of Dujun here: http://www.dreamersradio.com/mnet/detail-52#content just click the LOVE button. Thank you so much, everyone! ^^

[SKETCH] YOON DUJUN

SKETCHED BY ME, TAKE WITH PROPER CREDIT

[MV REVIEW] 2PM'S 'COMEBACK WHEN YOU HEAR THIS SONG': 7 DEADLY SINS

Wow, another good MV I see (jump jump jump!). Can you guess whose song for now? 2PM! yeasseu. TWO-PI-EM. Finally 2PM is back. I am not an Hottest. But, back then (before I stick to BEAST) I did listen and watched their songs and variety shows. So, even when they have a comeback schedule I will still keep updating hehe (I even watched their PV kekeke). My sister too loves 2PM so freaking much, that she won't give me the video for free. She was insisting me to watch the video on their official channel (I see being hard core is cute thing to do kekeke *reflection of me*) thus here I am watching the MV and going 'woaaah, good idea for an MV and nice story line connecting with the lyric'. I like it so much. By the way, I won't give comment of their vocals and music qualities. Admit it, how far we expect 2PM to be, they will sound like 2PM, as always. So yeah, this song because being sung by 2PM indeed it is so 2PM. (Okay, I'm suck on explaining about song -what I am trying to say is THIS IS GOOD SONG- hahah).

[PIC] 10 ASIA INDONESIA EDITION: DUJUN COVER

Today, I went to bookstore in my town. What did I find? Yeasseeeu, 10 Asia Indonesia edition with Dujun as the pictorial hehe. So, I shared it here. Well, because all I can see is just Dujun, so I am sorry for blurring the rest. s-o-w-r-r-y... adios!

take with proper credit

pictures taken not for commercial purpose

it's for individual (my) collection

location: Gramedia Bookstore, Solo

Thank you.

[eng trans] Yoseop and Cube Girls: Perfume

I feel it in the wind, the slight fragrance is good
As if being pulled by a magnet, I keep getting attracted to you

I like this moment too, why am I so attracted to you?
My heart pounds, electrifyingly

1 minute, 1 second of every day, I feel like I’m possessed, I keep getting attracted to you
The perfume that spread throughout this room makes me go crazy from the tip of my nose

[MV REVIEW] T-ARA N4 JEON WEON DIARY IS TELLING US TO MIND OUR BUSINESS!

Heol, I'm still laughing and replaying Jeo Weon Diary of T-ara N4. I'm not kidding, but it's true. I love this sub unit of T-ara's MV, the drama version one. Today I did many random things kkk stop the sharing stories jebal, self and I just randomly keep clicking the channels on youtube, thus I end up watching T-ara's Jeo Weon Diary MV which actually I have waited since the first day the news about them spread on internet. But, I forgot. So, I watched it just now although it had been released yesterday. I'm late~ hiks. FYI, T-ara N4 consist of Eunjung, Hyomin, Jiyeon and Ahreum.

[MV REVIEW] 4Minute's What's Your Name?: Carpe Diem!

 

Kinda funny why I decided to write this post. Hehe. So, this one is about 4minute (I'm not hating the girl nor like them, just so-so) whose songs I listen sometimes (I love 'mirror mirror', 'homeneon', 'I am okay', and 'volume up'. Btw, why I tell you this guys? LOL). Well, they have been back with a new MV entitled 'What's Your Name?' or 'Ireumi Mwoeyo?'. Quite eye catching, right? The song with such repetition is kinda easy listening and don't forget the easy dance! (though for some reason I like Volume Up better hehe). I'm not so good on judging music nor the quality of their singing skills, etc. So, don't ever think I will give any marks to those, hehe.

today's drawing of mine (IDKL)

the couch

the porch used to appear in IDKL

me drew it this noon
probably I miss IDKL's Dujun and Miinah alot
so, for those who read my IDKL fanfic
this is one of the 'memories'
this is the porch they used to hug each other, etc
(after Dujun proposed Miinah, remember?)

Sour Ice Cream

me and ice cream
a day when I remembered you
no, coz, you were and are always here
in my heart,
my sour ice cream

[01] ROSEMARY MAY

Udara dingin menusuk tulang. Asap dari kopi panasku mengepul, memberikan rasa hangat ke kulit-kulit tubuhku yang mengering. Kembali aku cek email dari beberapa teman yang entah memang karena khawatir tak hentinya mengirimiku pesan, hanya sekedar menanyakan keberadaanku dan kenapa tiba-tiba aku menghilang begitu saja dari lingkaran mereka.

Kusesap kopi hitam encer ini sambil mendesah pelan. Rokok tidak lagi berguna bagi mulutku yang terlanjur tidak bisa merasai ini. Dengan malas aku mulai mengetik email balasan pada salah satu temanku yang paling kerap menanyakan kabarku, Bon. Bon adalah seorang anak konglomerat  dan cukup dengan jentikan tangan hidupnya sudah mulus tanpa harus jungkir balik untuk mendapatkan apa pun yang dia inginkan. Lulus dengan dosen pembimbing yang tanpa segan membela mati-matian, padahal jelas-jelas skripsi Bon hanyalah omong kosong, bahkan kadang aku menertawainya karena otaknya sesungguhnya tak mampu untuk menulis seperti itu. “Kamu beli ya Bon?” anak-anak kampus sering meledeknya, dan Bon dengan gaya khasnya yang cuek hanya nyengir. Tetapi, Bon adalah teman paling baik dan perhatian yang membuatku nyaman di dekatnya, karena aku yakin dia tidak akan memanfaatkan orang lain, apalagi teman sendiri. Tentu saja, dia sudah tidak butuh apa-apa pun lagi untuk sampai berpikiran sejauh itu. Itulah kenapa aku merasa aman berada di dekatnya, aku tidak akan dimanfaatkan dan dibodohi dengan pertemanannya.

GONE NOT AROUND ANY LONGER

Those were what I thought of life, being sincere and honest. But it hurt a lot to think that way all the time. I kept asking an answer from universe to give me the best gift. But, the gift was none to be found.

Gone, not around any longer.

How came life was so as fast as light speed. This creature being called life came to me like an arrow from a bow, hit exactly at my eyes. I stiffened as seeing my surroundings frozen. They froze every here and there. It was only me who kept moving forward but I went to nowhere. No matter how hard I tried to open the chamber, or ran from them, I just couldn’t move even an inch forward. 

Gone, not around any longer.

The sincere feeling had gone, since the unidentified time. As all lies being formed in this life, they would keep coming over. Burnt one over another. I knew desperately deep in my heart that what was now was just none other than a joke. There were many ‘bombs’ awaited me in future. I saw that. I realized that.

Gone, not around any longer.

To be honest, people kept lying. Lying to me, lying to my words, lying to my sincerity, lying to everything I did. Why people kept embracing that evilness in their heart. Somehow I didn’t even believe every single word you said. But, I just kept nodding as nothing ever happened. You, never even once knew, but me, who felt it all the way, always noticed it at first.

I was tired seeing your face. A liar.

Gone, not around any longer.

I hope you had gone.

Not around any longer.