[DUJUN]
The time I saw
blood on the back of her white hospital shirt, I felt my body weakened. I
couldn’t feel my feet. I saw her crying in pain there, but I couldn’t reach her
with my own hands to help her cure the pain. The doctor and nurses’ hands were
all over her body when she yelped to me to not come to any nearer to her. She
was afraid I looked her in a terrible way, yes, I felt afraid, but I just
couldn’t let her alone in the pain. She fell unconscious when I reached her
bed, and the doctor hushed me away to give her the best treatment. Her dad
dragged me away, my eyes were wet with tears, and I felt so numb.
“You see… that’s
what I am afraid most.” Miinah’s dad said. “When you can’t handle what you see
in front of your eyes.” He patted my shoulder gently. “Could you still love
her?” these last words kept echoed in my mind as I saw Miinah slept soundly in
front of me. After the ‘pee’ incident the doctor gave her medicine, and then she
fell asleep. I kept holding on her hand, interlocked our fingers. I eyed her
wrist which made me remember the first day I met her.
The first day I
met her was actually not in front of my agency building, but in the play yard
in Ilsan when I was around ten. She was crying while sitting on the swing and
my ball hit her. I lent her my handkerchief and he paid me back with her lollipop
on her hands. That moment when she handed the lollipop I could see the needle
marks here and there on her wrist. I knew just now that those marks had to be
the trace of every injection she had been through. How hard your life Miinah-ahh, since young ‘til now, dear? I caressed
her cheek with my thumb. I could also remember her smile back then, the same
smile she showed to me every day. Now it’s
different. I caressed her lips, could
this lips smile again? I just couldn’t remember her name, so when she
appeared in front of me in the fan signing event, and confessed to me, I took
the chance. So, it happened that little girl was really Miinah. The same marks,
the same wrist, the same smile, and I even lent her the same handkerchief, does she remember me? I kissed her lips
briefly while my tip nose touched the oxygen tube made me chuckle by myself. With her around me, I just can be simply me,
and be happy, please be strong and always by my side, sweetheart…
“Drrrt drrrt” my
phone vibrated. I saw a message came. I opened it which it came from Junhyung.
Dujun-ahh, Hong abojie
let you take few days rest onward.
There’s no schedule for us too. Only some of us go on the
individual activities.
But, if you don’t mind try to open our fan café. Something big
happens.
I smiled. Thank
God, I have the best people around. I texted Junhyung back.
I am sorry for causing trouble to you guys. I will text Hong
abojie. Miinah is on hospital now, Junhyung, but don’t worry, she’s gonna be
okay soon.
Okay, I will check the fan café.
I pulled my hand
from Miinah’s hand and check my fan café. I hope something bad didn’t happen
now. I saw Yoseob posted a fan letter there. He wrote about me and Miinah, and
in charge of me, he said sorry and asked B2uty to understand me and to accept Miinah.
I massaged my temple, well, they decide
to do something without my agreement, good kiddos. Now, as I felt rather
angry, I checked the B2utys’ reactions which made me widen my eyes.
They… accepted…
us.
I will
always support oppa no matter what.
Me too,
after seeing unnie being dragged by her dad, I felt so sad. I want them to be
together.
Huhuhu I
still want oppa to be mine, but, yeah, as long as he is happy, I give him to
the unnie.
And still many
more of their comments gave me permission to be with Miinah. Without realizing
it, my tears fell down on my cheeks, and I smiled – the best fans in the world. I left a post there:
Hi, guys,
this is leader Dujun. Thank you everyone for letting me having this blissful
relationship. I’m sorry for hiding the things all this time. Now since it has
been revealed, will you guys pray for Miinah unnie? She is now sick and
hospitalized. I hope she will get better soon. And excuse me for absent from
some schedules. I won’t leave you, guys. But, I need your help to accept me the
way I am now.
Sincerely
thank you, B2utys.
“Dujun.” I heard
a soft voice called my name. I caught her eyes. She smiled back to me. “Why you
smile by yourself?” He squeezed the back of my hand. “Something happy happen?”
She breathed slowly.
I nodded. “Something
good happens. And it’s good that you are already awake,” I said, “because it’s
the time for having lunch. See, this is your lunch.” I pointed to the meals
provided by the hospital. “You want me to feed you or –”
“I will eat it
by myself.” She said, tried to sit. “Auhh…” She murmured as I eyed her, she
indeed looked in pain but forced herself to look strong.
“Do not try to
look strong in front of me anymore.” I pressed her shoulder to back in her
lying position, but gave one more pillow on the back of her head. “I will feed
you.” I said, trying to sound as calm as possible.
“But…” She tried
to open her mouth again, but I had locked my lips on hers. She looked at my
eyes, surprised. She pushed my chest. “I’m sick… how could you kiss me…” her
cheeks reddened made me giggle.
“Because your
lips are so naughty, you see.” I said while feeding her the soup. “Here, eat
it. Aaaaa…” This was first time ever in my life feeding a sick girl in the bed
of a hospital and I felt extremely happy. I loved seeing her eating like that.
She ate the meals with her eyes eyeing me. I just stared back at her. “Why?” I
asked finally.
“Don’t you think
I look like a monster now?” She said, still locked her gaze on me. “I know you
saw my bleeding back yesterday.” She turned her eyes to the ceiling, “I must be
looked like a monster, frightened you.” She sighed.
“Miinah-ahh…
what you say… how could you say something like that?” Her words hurt me so much
that I could feel my heart being stabbed by knife. “I never look at you like that;
you are still the same Miinah… whom I love so much, before and after.” I feed
her again.
“But, can’t you
see, perhaps I can’t run beside you anymore.” She tried to avoid my gaze, “I’m
only a burden for you.”
“No… you are
not.” I hissed. “Jebal, Miinah-ahh, I
am still the same person as before, and so you are.” I squeezed her hand
gently. “I love you… always.” I said.
“I… I… love… you…
too…” She said those words while tears started to come out and run to her
cheeks. I pulled her to my embrace.
“Shh… don’t cry…
shh… everything will be okay.” I stroked her hair slowly, “believe me.” I
planted a kiss on her forehead.
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[MIINAH]
“Hi, Miinah…” I
saw smiling faces in front of me through the Ipad screen. I tried to bow as
much as I can. I slightly looked at Dujun who intertwined our fingers and sat
in the edge of my bed while holding the Ipad. “Eomma appa, don’t be too obvious that you are happy seeing your
future daughter in law, aish, you
guys embarrass me.” He said to her parents through the Ipad screen. I stared at
him, future daughter in law?
“Why? Eomma is just happy seeing her.” His mom
pouted to him, and back to look at me. “Dear, how is your condition? I am sorry
I haven’t had a chance to visit you, but we will soon.” She smiled.
I smiled. “I am
okay, eomma.” I said, “Do not force yourself
to visit me. Dujun is enough.” I tightened my intertwine fingers into his.
“But, we want to
meet you, tal.” His dad showed his
face on the screen made me smile, “Doori too will come.”
“My older
sister.” Dujun whispered.
“Ohh…” I looked
at him before smiling to his dad, “thank you, abojie…” I said.
“Eomma, appa, I
think it’s the time for Miinah to go to bed, and both of you too, take enough
rest please.” Dujun talked to his parents. “Is it okay?”
“Oh, geureu…
Miinah, be safe, and you, Dujun, stay close to her.” His mom smiled to me while
his dad waved his hands showing the palms to the screen. I slightly bowed and
smiled, “Neee, eomma appa.” I uttered.
It’s been
awhile, I call someone by the name EOMMA. I smiled and found Dujun put the Ipad
on the table beside the bed. “Dujun-ahh, what does that mean by future daughter
in law?” I asked him.
“That means you.
Don’t you want to be their daughter in law?” He sat gently on the edge of my bed;
his eyes locked mine, “To be the daughter in law of my parents, don’t you want
it?” He caressed my cheek. “Well, now time to sleep.” He stroked my hair, and
planted a kiss on my forehead. “I will sit here by yourside.”
I made space on
my bed, and patted it, “Will you sleep beside me?” I asked. He widened his
eyes. “It’s okay, this bed is big enough for both of us.” I said, pulled his
hand.
“But, what if
the nurses or doctor see us?” He asked, frowning.
“They will be
happy see a happy couple cuddling to each other, I bet?” I laughed. He
surprisingly looked at me, and laughed with me.
“Muhahahaha, you
little Miinah!” He pretended to hit my forehead and I pretended to avoid it.
Yes, he is the only one.
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to be cont
